"Yeah, it's a gift from you. I'd be so sad if I lost the last thing I had gotten from you."
"I'm so happy you still have it. I had to tell you something." Christian looked hesitant.
"I can tell something's been on your mind for a while now. Let it out. You'll feel better."
"I know there have been times when I've been cold to you in the past. I wanted to apologize forthat. I got diagnosed with bipolar disorder last year but I think I've had it for a really long time. Iwish I had known sooner so I would've known when my mind was being irrational. There havebeen so many things I wish I had done but now they're all just regrets because I was too afraid."
Ella was stunned but she collected herself quickly. "Maybe they don't have to be things that youregret. Maybe you can still do them. In fact, I'll help you do them. You mean a lot to me and Iwant to help you through this so you feel better. We can make a bucket list of all the things youwish you had done and do them now. What's the biggest thing on that list?"
"My biggest regret?" Christian raised an eyebrow.
"Yeah."
"No, it would just ruin everything if I brought it up now. I wouldn't be able to stand losing you."He sighed. Ella had never seen him look this distant before.
She gave him a reassuring smile. "I'm here and I'm not going anywhere. You never have toworry about losing me. You'll feel lighter if you resolved your regrets and I'll stay beside you to help you deal with the aftermath."
"You still smile the same way... it makes me feel safe." He took a deep breath as though he was bracing himself. " My biggest regret has always been not asking you out because I was afraid of rejection."
Ella was overwhelmed with joy. This was everything she had ever wanted and now that the moment was here, she didn't know what to say.
Watching Ella stay silent had Christian's anxiety grow "I knew I shouldn't have said that. I'm sorry-"
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SOULMATE - Christian Yu
FanfictionElla stared at her ceiling as she lay on her bed. She could see the light grow brighter. It was rare for her to be up early and watch the sunrise but sleeping proved to be extremely difficult the entire night. But how could she possibly think about...
