lovebite.

Maybe It's Different

As I stood in my room words starting reopening in my mind. Andre body-shaming me. I shed a tear but hey, it was Andre at least. I walked across my messed up floor and reached out to my little mirror. The mirror had cracked from when I dropped it a long time ago. It's a pink sparkly mirror that had the word 'GIRL!' printed on the back outlined in black and blue. Most of the paint has chipped off by now. I squinted closely at a smudge on the cracks. There was K + L surrounded by a heart. K? K. Kayden? No. No. No. Not him. No No No. NO. I shook my head. Sweat dripped off my chin. I teared up. I never wanted to remember that name, I swore to myself. 

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I held the heated, glass container in my hands with cold lasagne inside. Just two slices. One for him and me! To eat together! Maybe. I glanced at the floor, tapping my feet and looking left and right. Tick. Tick. Time went by. Andre was nowhere to be spotted. I miss him. Maybe he's off with a sick day. "Hey!" I turned. A girl stood next to me. "You seem lonely? You alright?" she said, passing me her number. "Oh. I was. Just. Never mind." I murmured. She appeared oddly familiar. She was covered in layers of neutrally coloured crocheted sweaters. A warm scarf wrapped around her neck and fluffy gloves covered her fingers. She took my one arm that wasn't holding the lasagne and dragged me towards the empty room in the school. The girl felt embarrassed I suppose, in the whole crowd. Maybe she's just an introvert? She was all red in the face and mumbled her words. 

Smash! The door opened in a hurry. "KD! Come sit!", the girl told. I froze. Froze, ran, cried. The girl chased after me. "Did I say something? Oh god no. She seemed so sensitive towards something. She caught up in time to see me enter a stall with tears running down my face. We both had a free period, since the bell already went. Knock! Knock! "Hey. Are you ok? Please answer. I didn't mean to hurt you or anything. Please let me in atleast?" I stuttered and whimpered. "O-O-Ok.." The stall door creaked. She hugged me tightly. The warmth from her felt like something I've never felt before. It was warm and calming. I hugged her back. And rested my head on her shoulder. She sat on the toilet with me. "My name is Silvia! What's yours?" she smiled. I couldn't help but let out a grin. "Lucy."  she continued hugging me. And we started getting to know each other better until the period. We said goodbye  and arranged to meet at her locker (#457).

I walked to locker 457 and stayed until she came.  I miss Andre. I hope he gets better tomorrow so I can see him.

... "Hi." the KD person stopped next to me.

 "I. Hi. Kayden."

 "Still not forgiving?" 

"No. Never. What you did was. Was different." 

"But, you like my sister? Silvia?"

"She's your sister...?" A tear fell down my sticky cheeks.

"Yeah."

"She. She'll be different. She will. I know she will. You. You were the. You were the stupid one. I was 11. Sure you were 13 but, you did that intentionally."

...

I left. Shocked, disappointed, scared and traumatised. I knew he moved here, but he had a sister? And. She was caring for me. I hope she's different. Kayden was exactly like that and look what that lead him to do. I'll give her a chance. I promise to myself only one.

Cause she's my friend.