lovebite.

Expectations

Back home I hopped onto Safari. I was weirded out by the feeling I had. I couldn't but explore my sexuality more. What if it's just a phase. I don't know if I even should be doing. I shut my phone and went to bed, I've had enough today. In the midst if night the doorbell rang. I who was in a lights sleep took up all my energy and brought myself to the door. ... Silence struck.

 "Emm.?"

 "I'm just popping in." 

"I haven't seen you for 13 years and that's all you have to say?" 

"Calm down. I'm not here for you anyways. I'm here for mum."

"You've been a ruthless asshole and moving out to see your boyfriend.?! Can't you listen for like two seconds!" I shouted.

"How'd you know I moved in with my boyfriend..?"

"Mum told me besides, why does that matter." My sister is such a fucking freak.

"Lead me to mum." Emm ordered. She followed me upstairs. When I let her into the room she dropped to her knees. Sobbing. "Emm..?" I came in worried.

"What the fuck." she said. I stood in shock. I hadn't checked on mum in weeks. And I should've. No wonder the house smelled horrid. 

"THIS IS YOUR FAULT LUCY! I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU."

"It's not. I swear, I didn't even know." She grabbed me by the wrist squeezing it tight.

"LET FUCKING GO OF ME EMM!"

"YOU AREN'T TAKING THIS SERIOUS ENOUGH. MUM IS DEAD NOW."

"Don't have to point it out." I cried.

"You don't understand what I've been through while I was gone. My boyfriend left me and my friends abandoned and I'm struggling to even live by myself." She advised.
"Fuck you Emm. You let me grow up alone, neglected by mum and never seeing dad. I had to sustain myself at like FIVE. One of my bestest friends left me, and after all these years, I've just gotten worse. All because you fucking think staying with dad was a better idea. Where even is dad anyway?" I said. Emm stood silently. "He's gone. He just left me a few months before I moved in with my boyfriend." Her eyes lowered, as if they were almost closed. She seemed tired. "I can't do this anymore. LEAVE. NOW." I commanded towards Emm.  "You've always been so selfish. I'm out and fuck you Lucy. You were never a sister to me." Those words broke me. I've been trying my best to even survive and for once I see her again that's what she says.  I couldn't sleep at all. Words replayed in my mind and I felt overloaded with emotions. I've lost everyone. The last person left is Silvia. I feel, like, I took my mum for granted. But I've had enough of everyone shit so I couldn't care less about anything at this point.

* * *

My eyes were bloodshot red. My eyes felt droopy, and I woke up pale, my thin blanket beside me. And my lit up phone to the right. I stared upwards, thudding towards my extra blanket and flat pillows thrown onto the ground the other night. I curled myself in my blanket cocoon and typed letter by letter requesting Silvia to come over. She came in through the unlocked door Emm had smashed close last night. She treaded up the stairs with her morning energy and scurried into my room, sweating and worried. "Are you okay? Are you hurt? Do you need water? Maybe some food. You look pale. Do you need warmth? Wanna get some rest? You need to sleep. Maybe some meds? Or I can get-" she bombarded me with questions. But I cut her off as I took out one of my arms to bring her to sit down on the bed. I moved like a slow caterpillar and laid my head in her chest. "Lucy.?" I proceeded to stay quiet. Mumbling words every now and then. I changed my position and let out an 'I love you." muffled between layers of blankets and pillows.

 Silvia laid down and burying her head on mine, her soft silky hair covering the side of my face. I turned my head, my glistening tears were nothing as much as the sparkle in her eyes.  I leant in more forward to her, as if we were about to kiss. She leant in as well, but we both backed off a little. I noticed my running tears and stopped, and my face felt warm and appeared blushing. I got up from her chest and sat between her legs with her arms around my waist. I placed my arms softly on her shoulders and then hugged her closely with my arms around her neck. My eyes closed and rested my head on her shoulder as I smiled. She turned her head and placed her arms on my red cheeks. She pulled me closer in and swiftly gave me a gentle kiss on my cheek. My face turned red, I was overly flustered. I couldn't help but give her a soft kiss and cover my face excitedly. "You know I love you," Silvia said with a soft, but flirtatious tone as she grinned. We cling tight to each other, the blankets now wrapped around the both of us now. We giggled as we circled the pillows around us. 

I couldn't be more happier with someone ever.

a/n: OMG 😭🙏 I LOVE THIS HAPPY LATE PRIDE MONTH <33