Reaching The Stars

Fourteen

Another day another dollar. I use that line to my advantage. I can't wait to start my own business. Today we're gonna have a sit down conversation with Onyx and talk about the things I will need to do first before and how to go about. I need different peoples perspectives so I'm going to ask my dad as well.

I figured out what my line is going to be, it's going to be a little lingerie, model magazine line. Of course, I can be one of the models.

Since working for Onyx, I've made a lot of friends and I'm sure they can help me out.

I know my mom would be so proud of me. I just wish I had my big sister Nyla's support and even talk to her. I miss her more than ever and a conversation with her will help me so much. To think we haven't talked in months and when I call her phone goes straight to voicemail. She won't even answer her own father's calls.

Nyla was 21 when mom died and after she just left, didn't tell anyone where she was going. But after some years she finally said she was living in LA with a boyfriend.

We live in Las Vegas so it's not much of a drive.

It's just me and my dad. Well then we have my cousins aunts, uncles and grandparents. But my dad has always been my rock since my mom died.

Jatasha Emori Johnson.

My mother's name. I will live by it every single day of my life.

Carter Nash Johnson.

My fathers name. My rock and model in life.

Shaking myself out of my thoughts I hear a knock on my office door. I yell 'come in' and the person comes in and closes the door.

I am aware that the person is Braxton. Oh I haven't seen him in a while.

"Braxton where have you been, hiding from me?" I tilt my head with a smirk.

"Hello sunshine. Missed me?" He chuckles and comes sit down in one of my chairs.

"Yes, I haven't seen my best friend now tell me where have you been." I demand.

"Visiting my family in New York." I nod, that's so many hours away.

"Wow, are you originally from there and living here?" I ask him. He nods.

"Yes I'm from New York and moved here for college and now I'm here. Well not in college anymore but you get my point." He says. "What's been going on with you and boss man lately?" He asks me. Up in my business.

I roll my eyes and smile. "Nothing to tell." I just shrug.

"No. That smile is telling me a different story. Tell now and I won't take nothing as an answer."

"Well I dried humped him, he was at my house last night for dinner and we talked and nothing much has happened." I say in a breath.

"What." He shouts. I roll my eyes at his dramatics.

"Will you shut up, it's not a big deal." Another Ashanti, these two will instantly click together.

"Not a big deal, are you crazy woman. I assume you made him have an orgasm. And he ate over at your place. Tell me how that doesn't sound like a big deal." I mean when he puts it like that it sounds more realistic and a bigger deal than I'm picturing it.

"Okay okay, maybe it is a big deal, but I'm not going to do nothing about it. I'm trying to avoid him."

"Girl, the whole world knows you have the hots for that man, the way he looks at you it's like you're his whole world." After he finishes his sentence Onyx just completely walks in.

"Who are you?" He asks as soon as he steps foot in my office. He's jealous again. "You're the IT guy?" I roll my eyes.

"I'm Braxton Vos, sir." He tell him.

"Why are you in my office Onyx?" I ask not in the mood for his shit right now.

"Why is he in your office." I roll my eyes.

"Stop being batshit jealous he's my gay best friend. No need to hurt your ego." God he's so dramatic. What's up with people and dramatics these days.

His eye brows raise. Yea speechless now.

He clears his throat. "Oh okay sorry." He say to Braxton.

"Anything you need or did you just come to meddle?" We being sassy now.

"I'll come back, Ma non parlarmi mai più così amore mia." He says in his sexy ass Italian accent. Not even knowing what he said but it was hot.

He winks and leaves my office.

"Whew, the sexual tension y'all have is out this world." Braxton breaks the silence after. I hit him on his shoulder.

"Shut up, don't you have work to do. I need to get back to mine." I say.

"Yea yea, I'll see you later. Any advice from me, go for him, y'all both like each other more than y'all think. Go for it." He says and leaves.

Leaving me in my thoughts. Maybe everyone is right, maybe I just need to go for it. Let both our attractions out and get together.

I need to let my pride aside and see what Onyx has to offer. We both know I'm attracted to him, there's no doubt about it but letting myself go and potentially being in a relationship with him scares me.

It scares me and I can't even tell you why, I guess you can say I'm scared of putting my all into the future relationship and not getting the same in return.

My history with relationships and guys in general... let's just say I've had my fare shares in heartbreak and cheating.

I know what Onyx feels for me does deeper than anything. Everyone sees the attraction in his eyes for me, I'm not blind I just pretend like I don't  because that means what he feels for me is real and part of me doesn't want to believe that.

But, what I can say is that Onyx is my peace. Whenever I'm around him I feel peaceful and safe. Don't let him know tho, he'll get cocky after. Seriously Onyx is my comfort zone. He's there whenever I need him to be. No matter if I try and avoid him he's always there.

I can always count on him to be there for me. No matter what and I stand on that.