Reaching The Stars

Nineteen

Dread. The anticipation with apprehension or fear. Dread is all I feel. The fear of seeing Onyx again after everything that has happened. I don't wanna see how badly I've hurt him. What it caused him.

Laying in my bed, I sigh knowing I have to face him, well I have to go get my stuff from my office.

Wow it's really the last time I'll ever step foot in the building. Probably the last time I'll ever see Onyx and that scares me.

God why did I have to do this to myself. I'm torturing myself with my own thoughts.

Checking the time, it's 10:30 I woke up later than I thought.

I get up make my bed and make my way into the kitchen to fix me a coffee.

"You're up late sunshine." Ashanti scares the fuck out of me.

"Ashanti what the hell, don't do that." I scolded her. She laughs.

I like to make my coffee a certain way, sometimes I just settle for a good Starbucks drink.

"Sorry, oh you getting ready to see Onyx." I roll my eyes.

"Yea and I know you will give me a lecture so save it for later." I dramatically say.

She smiles and leaves the kitchen.

Heading up to my room, I go in the bathroom and do my business. I then go to my closet and pick out the simplest outfit. A pair of ripped jeans and a crop top with my panda dunks.

I decide to go for a light makeup look with some lipgloss.

I stare at myself in my vanity mirror. Perfect. I put my hair in a ponytail remembering I got my hair done in braids.

I grab everything I needed and left to the garage. Wanting to be fancy I pick my Lamborghini to take with me.

With a sigh I get in my car and leave for this dreadful morning.

I play some music and drive down to the company building, I still park my car in the garage and take the elevator up.

With my office keys in my hand I take it and unlock my door, or what was my door.

I peak my head to the window to see if Onyx was in his office, in fact he was. Oh fuck!

There's already a couple of boxes so I can put my things. As I put the last picture in the box I take a moment to look in this office.

I had some good times in here with Onyx, I will admit that it hurts to leave this part of my life with him. To let it all go and possibly close this chapter.

The first time he showed me my office, the time he asked me for lunch. When he would sit with me in my office. Our first kiss, when he asked me out on a date everything.

Everything that has happened between me and him is all in the past. I will move on with my life and so will he but that doesn't mean it doesn't hurt for me to think about.

Facing the reality I take my things down to the garage and put it in my car, riding the elevator back up I knock on his door.

Take a deep breath Myra.

I inhale and exhale as he opens his door. I can't look at his face but I have to.

When I look up all I see is his exhaustion, how tired he is and he's looking at me with such hatred and sadness. I did this to him. Everything he is feeling is because of me.

"What?" Ouch I deserve that though.

I hand him the keys, "Thank you for everything. Goodbye Onyx." I tell him sincerely because I am grateful for everything, no matter what happened.

All he does is laugh, not a happy one but a devilish laugh one where I think he may scream.

I raise an eyebrow wondering why he is laughing. "You don't see it do you. You're too deep into yourself that you'll ruin whatever is in your path." He says. Ouch that hurt.

"Onyx I'm-

I didn't even get to finish before he cut me off, "You're sorry yea yea. But you hurt me Myra damn and you don't see it. But have a good life and goodbye." He says and closes his door.

I huff, my life is just a mess. I still leave whatever's left of my dignity while I still can.

Onyx was always there for me, no questions asked. Whenever I needed him, he came. He would always want me to talk about it when I'm ready, he never pushed me. Always right beside me.

I leave in my car and ride home. Im already preparing on my death wish.

Onyx was my blessing in disguise and I never knew that. He was someone I never knew I needed until it's too late.

He hates me and I can't blame him, well more like disgusted with me. The hatred in his eyes said so many words.

Im filled with my thoughts again, no music in the car while I park my car in the garage. I carry the boxes in the house and put them up in my room.

I didn't even know this was going to hit me this hard.

No more late night calls, no more flirting, no more dates and certainly no more working with him.

Well this sucks ass.

As I'm walking down the stairs into the kitchen Ashanti just full blown rants.

"You stupid idiot, are you dumb no seriously. I can give you a hard time because I'm your best friend. Onyx was everything for you and you ruined it. Myra I love you but what exactly was you thinking." My eyebrows raise up. Well there goes that.

"I know I'm such a dumbass. I don't know what I was thinking in that moment. Me and him could've had something special and I ruined it. He confessed his feelings and I straight up told him no after I said I had feelings for him." An idiot that's what I am.

"He hates me Shanti and I'm lost without him. He was my everything and I turned on him." The sadness I once had is now coming back.

"I guess this is the time to close that chapter of my life and move on, gotta start my own business or whatever. It might be a good time to try and mend the relationship I have with Nyla, it's time for my big sister." I tell her.

"And how you know exactly where she lives?" She asks.

"I'll just have dad look it up for me, I know she lives in LA just don't know the address." I say.

"When are you planning on leaving?" She asks. Aww she'll miss me.

"Why you'll miss me?" She hits my arm, "Kidding but in a week, I have to talk to dad first then I'll get the ticket and fly over there."

California is on the other side of the world, yes I've flown by myself before but what if my sister doesn't want to see me. It's been years since we've talked.

I honestly have nothing to lose from this, well maybe a sister cause she's my only one. I've already lost my dignity so that can't be taken

Who knows maybe we'll mend our relationship and I will stay over there and start my own business.

My story is just now getting started.

Prepare for this long journey.