Reaching The Stars

Fifteen

Onyx's POV

I was born with a loving mother and father as well as a brother and sister who loved me to my full extent. I am a full on momma's boy. I love my mother to death also my dad but sometimes we had bumped heads in the past. My family is so important to me.

Now you may question why haven't I already made my move to get Myra to be my girlfriend and part of me is scared. I'm scared to get my hopes up, to fall short. My last relationship ended badly and that's why I'm scared putting my all into a relationship.

I definitely know that Myra isn't like my past relationships especially the last relationship I had but deep down my head tells me that I need to have a guard up. Trust me, I really want a relationship with her. That's the only thing I really want. I trust her more than I trust myself. She is my well-being and I absolutely adore her.

Me being a jack ass and selfish, she's better off without me, without my toxicity and my possessiveness but I care about her so fucking much it eats me up.

I'm not admitting this out loud because I'm a fucking pussy, but Myra is my fucking safe space. I can tell her absolutely anything and I won't even feel stupid about it.

That's what she does to me. She makes my mind go crazy go feral. Maybe I should take the risk and say fuck all my morals and date her, but should I really be taking a risk? Should I really put all my time and energy into this relationship and it might end up bad? Or should I say a fuck everything and go for it.

Today is my off day, so I'm sitting in my house preferably on my deck having these thoughts swirling in my mind. Thinking about Myra is my daily task. She's ingrained into my brain and all I want to do is kiss her and take her out on a proper date. She deserves everything and more, more than I can provide her with.

"Get your ass up and stop thinking about your little girlfriend." I rolled my eyes, fucking Dax.

I swear I can never get peace. "Shut the fuck up, dumbass."

He laughs, "Hey, just stating the facts." I rolled my eyes at him.

"Get your ass to work and leave me the fuck alone." I tell him.

He laughs and leave the house.

Being off from work, makes me want to go see Myra. Maybe I just might do that.

I would love to see your beautiful face again, even though it hasn't been a day yet since I've seen her, she consumes my thoughts.

Onyx ~ Hey beautiful what are you doing?

Myra ~ Hanging out with my friend Ashanti. Why what's up?

Damn my ass really wanted to see her, I'll leave her to hang out with her friend since it's also her day off as well.

Onyx ~ Well I wanted to have lunch with you but hang out with your friend I won't bother you. Let me know what you're doing later.

Maybe she would want to go to the movies I'm down for that.

Myra~ If I tell you, what are we gonna do?

Onyx ~ Well I was thinking we can go to the movies and maybe have dinner that's up to you or you can pick either one is fine.

Myra ~ Sounds good to me. I'll text you and let you know. Have a good rest of your day Onyx.

Onyx ~ You too Myra.

Fuck, she has me like a giggling teenager. What the fuck has this world come to? Why am I fucking like this? Why does she have me in this type rope or I can't get out of.

All I want to be is with her in her presence no matter where she is I want to be right beside her. Coming from me, that's a huge commitment.

She makes a fire light up inside me and it's scary as hell. I don't know how to control this part in my life. She consumes my every thought, being and everything else in between.

That women is like fire and ice. I'm the fucking poison that's bad for her.

Yes, dating again is a huge commitment but maybe it's time for me to stop being scared and actually put my guard down for once. I want this with her I want it all.

I've realized she controls my every feeling. Any emotions that I feel is because of her and I'm not saying that's a bad thing nor am I saying that's good thing, but there could be consequences with each one.

I snap out of my thoughts when my phone rings and I see it's my mom calling.

"Hey mom." I greet her as soon as I answered.

"My baby how are you?" I smile because I know how my mom can get.

"I'm good, Dax is a pain in my ass more than usual and the business is still operating really good. How are you and dad?" I ask.

"I'm good he's good. Your siblings are a pain in my ass though." I laugh.

"Anyways the reason I called was because we are hosting a picnic party whatever you wanna call it at the house and I want you to come. Bring whoever." She tells me. Hmm is it a good time for her to meet my family.

We better say yes. Of course Dax is coming no way he would miss this.

"Okay mom. When is it?"

"It's next week. At 3 pm." I smile.

"I'll be there mom, with a guest and Dax." She squeals.

God, my mother is in her late 50s and still can act like a teenager.

"My ears mother." I roll my eyes.

"Oh hush, but I love you and see you next week."

"I love you too mom. Bye." I say and hang up the phone.

Swear I'm such a momma's boy and there's no shame in that.

Now all I have to do is tell Myra and agree for her to go.

That's a piece of cake.