Complicated

#34

It truly was a long night.

Every time one of the babies woke up, I'd sort them out, they'd go back to sleep and then the other would wake up.

This happened every time.

Finally though, at 9am, the babies are finally asleep and sleeping soundly. They have been for around an hour now which is way longer than any point last night.

I tiptoe out of the room and leave the monitor on so I can hear any sound if they was to wake up.

I open the hallway door a little and to my surprise Harry is sat up on the couch wide awake staring into space.

I open the door fully and walk out into the room, he looks at me and gives me an awkward, empty smile.

I sit down on the further side of the L-shaped couch, I guess the shape of the sofa describes the relationship him and I have.

"So..um. Sorry about last night, I was gonna come back sooner, but I haven't seen the boys in almost 10 months and I just wanted to be with them for a bit" he says relaxing, he's hungover.

"What about your kids? What about the mother of your kids? Your a dad now Harry. Believe it or not you are a father, you need to start acting like one" I say pointing at him when referring to him.

"I know I know. When I'm done recording I'll be more present" he sighs.

"No you should be present now. You haven't fed, changed or even touched your kids in 5 days. The only thing you've done is put our girl into some clothes when she was born. You only ask how they are, you never actually see them" I say folding my arms to stare at him blankly.

"They aren't gonna remember that though are they? Your acting like I've abandoned them" he shakes his head.

"You haven't even bothered to help pick out a name for them, we still need to register them yet" i sigh.

"Fine, because I was handed the girl, I'll name the girl, you name the boy" he looks at me deadly serious.

"Okay" I nod.

"Darcy" he says.

"Okay. Elliot" I say.

"Done. Darcy and Elliot Styles" he smiles.

"Erm. No? You wanted to be an absent dad so they get my last name" I shake my head.

"I'm here aren't I?" He smirks.

"No, your not physically there for them. You have no relationship with them at all. Plus we aren't even in a relationship. Your their dad biologically but literally any guy could be a better father figure and earn that last name. Im registering them tomorrow. I've got a gig. Either fix the relationship or be my partner. I'm sure you'd pick the relationship with them though" I laugh to myself in anger before standing up to make a coffee.

"Would you like to be my girlfriend?" He asks.

"No. Your only asking so they get your last name" I shake my head.

"No, I genuinely have feelings for you" he sits up looking at me with the same eyes he used to look at me with over 9 months ago.

"Sure you do Harry. You know you don't let me out to the studios with you, you haven't since I started showing, you haven't even told the media you have kids, you cover my face whenever I'm out with you. When will you be ready to let your fan base see me?" I ask sarcastically.

"I'm ready now love, I wasn't before but now that this albums dropping..I want them to know who it's about" he lies back.

"Your wrote songs about me?" I stop in my tracks, turning to look at him.

"Mhm" he hums.

A million feelings start rushing into me. I feel like it's all fake, but then again...he wouldn't lie to me like that would he?

"So?" He asks.

"I don't know Harry" I shake my head, picking my coffee up and sitting back in my seat from before.

"Cmon. Talk to me" he kneels forward.

"For the way things have been these past couple months I don't know if I could do it. How do I know your not just doing it for the twins to have your last name?" I shrug.

"I don't care who's name they get. I know I've been absent to you, and to Darcy and Elliot, but trust me Annabelle I still feel the same way I did 9 months ago. It never changed" he explains with doe eyes.

"You don't even use a nickname for me anymore though. No one uses my full name unless their angry at me, or unless were distant" I sigh.

"I think Annabelle is a beautiful name. I don't know why I stopped using Belle to be honest, I just did one day and I realised how much I love the name Annabelle" he smiles to himself.

"I'm gonna say yes to your question...but you have to promise you'll be there for us or we're leaving" I say with blunt words.

He smiles to himself and stands up, he walks over to me and moves the coffee from out of my hands, then pulling me up and wrapping his big arms around me, holding my waist and kissing my cheek.

We stand there hugging for a moment and then we start swaying and dancing to non-existent music.

Id be lying if I said I hated this.

I still don't buy that he actually has feelings for me, but I'll relish in the time this goes on for until it ends.

"Whose last name are they getting then" I whisper in his ear.

"Give them yours" he whispers back. 

I melted right then and there with that whisper.

Is the spark back? Am I just feeding into a game? I wish I could tell to be honest.

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HANNA IS BACK IN FULL ACTION????