Complicated

#45

On the way to the hotel for the next show, I can't say I'm the happiest I could possibly be. I feel the same fear I did when this whole hiding business came around with Nancy.

The roads are busy, so maybe if he was coming after us it would delay him.

I pull my phone out and look online for when his next show is and where it is to get an idea on if he would get us or not.

He's in..Chicago tonight. Only issue is, I don't know where we are tonight.

"Harry where are we tonight?" I ask.

"Michigan" he responds staring at his phone.

I look at the kids sat in their car seats at the back of the mini van, snoozing away.

"So erm. Do you think if you had a concert, you'd be able to get from Chicago to Michigan and back without cancelling or being late?" I ask, trying to be casual.

"Hmm I don't know. It could be possible depending on..are you still thinking about this whole thing with Dom?" He says, eventually turning away from his phone and looking at me with concern filling in his face.

I shrug and feel a breakdown coming on.

I watch as he forms his mouth in a straight line and leans over looking like he's dripping with sympathy.

He places his large hand over my knee.

"Annabelle. I wont let anyone hurt you" he shakes his head.

"It's not me I'm worried about." I sniff. "It's the kids and you..you said it yourself Harry. He seems the type to kill. If he was close once you never know."

"No no..please don't let my idiocy fill your head with that shit. I promise that even if he does show his face, I won't allow him to bring any of my babies any arm." He smiles squeezing my knee a little.

It tickled. I flinch a little bit and let out a chuckle which makes him giggle too.

He holds his hand out to me and I take it.

He caresses my hand with his thumb, which is the most gentle touch I think I've ever felt.

I sit there allowing myself to feel calmed down by him through comfort.

I start to feel tired and woozy, it feels like I'm being swayed into it.

I close my eyes for a brief moment.

All my worries drift away and I feel myself fall into a temporary coma, full of comfort and bliss.

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We got to the hotel; a funny feeling, I cant even imagine the way I felt then in comparison to now. It's all different. I'm with Harry and the kids now instead of Harry and the band, a very different atmosphere indeed.

I didn't think I'd ever publicly walk into a hotel with Harry Styles and our kids across this life time. In fact, I didn't think I'd ever speak to him again.

There's a lot of reasons why I never thought I'd be in this situation, simply because Harry would never let himself be seen publicly with someone especially when that persons confirmed a relationship.

I did my research at times. Madelyn confirmed so many times that she knew Harry romantically and the day she said that, was the day he stopped being seen with her..I wouldn't be surprised if that happens to me when he's asked about it in the press or in an interview.

His next interview is literally after the show, it has an early start and finish simply for the reason of the interview. It starts in an hour, so there's no soundcheck and no tests. It's straight to the show and straight to the interview.