Poems

Body

TRIGGER WARNING// this contains explicit details about how I can't stand my body Please be kind and if you're struggling with self image or EDS I recommend scrolling much love.

Body
I take my clothes off and stare in the mirror.
The thoughts that cross my mind as my eyes wander my skin are repulsive.
I hate my body.
I'm uncomfortable in my own skin

Something I've dealt with ever since I was a kid.
And honestly I don't know why I hate it so much
All the girls I know always say how much they wish they had my body.
But the way I'm treated by men and boys is disgusting.

Maybe if I got a breast reduction they wouldn't stare.
I wouldn't feel uncomfortable wearing certain shirts.
Maybe if my ass were smaller I wouldn't get dress coded for wearing a normal pair of shorts.

I hate it.
I think I'm ugly.
I think that guys automatically think I'm easy because of the size of my butt and breasts.
When that's not the case at all.

I've always wanted someone to cherish ever since I was a child.
I never really received that until recently.
And Im trying to learn that not every guy wants me for sex.
But it's hard it truly is, because that's what Im used to.
It's what I've been exposed to, so it's different to see someone not like that at all.
But I love him in every way shape and form for treating me like a person and not an object.