music electrifying our veins//my ears somehow still feel numb, somber even//i can feel the corners of my eyes wrinkling up//glittering//glowing//i can feel my limbs//i can feel your presence//i feel alive//that doesn't happen often//you look mesmerizing//i look away//anywhere, but you//i think i'm scared to find out what might follow//i don't want to be scared//people are like puppets//strings uniting them with the tones//strings uniting them//the air smells of booze and sex//i've had enough drinks to do things i know i will regret//but hey, i can play dumb//blame the alcohol//i don't think i am drunk//i hate people who are in love//correction: i hate the fact that i am alone in this love//i can barely keep myself up//intoxicated//in love//in an illusion//you grab me by my waist//my hands around your shoulder//we're like two drunkards walking with no sense of our surroundings//so dumb//the world goes blurr when you're near//the clubs getting closed//couples//couples leaving together//we aren't a couple, i remind myself//somehow, we're still the dreamiest//you keep me upright//you always do//i hate the fact that it's always you//there's no one else i trust enough//i am laughing//i don't even know why//we're both too wasted to even care//it's nearly about 3am//usually we'd stay up the night to talk away at this hour//today, it's different//you by my side//the night feels unreal//what happens when we don't have music drowning our thoughts under?//my thoughts come creeping and then running//hauntingly//you are the silence to my chaos//metaphorically//you're actually the loudest//a boulder shielding me from everything//i love you//i wont' tell you//my heart is nearly pounding in my hands//we get in the backseat of a friend's car//the night is gonna be one that i'll remember//young and wild
not sure what to feel about this; this is pretty much my drunk self rambling about well- something- ahaha i surely could've modified this into something but it feels more personal this way so yes <3
