Stitching the Gaps

Is Soft

Chapter 51: Is Soft

Hinata's POV

On this very night, I struggled to get any shuteye. Here and there my legs flopped around searching for the coldest spot, yet the warmth got to me and my limbs ended up kicking the comforter away. My stubborn eyes would close for a second and then flutter open. My body tossed and turned to the point where my feet were planted on the cool floor beside my bed. I sighed quietly as I rose and headed to my closet.

I flicked the walk-in closet light on and ran my hand through the lineup of hung clothes. It's impossible to go back to sleep when I have the urge to prepare for today's occasion. What should I wear today? Should I go for a cozy look? Or casual?

For a second, I was undecided to wear a long skirt or jeans. But then I remembered Sasuke saying to wear something comfortable. So I leaned more on the jeans. So I grabbed a pair of faded blue jeans and a dull cream-colored pullover. I laid the clothes on my desk chair and searched for a pair of shoes to go with it.

While I took advantage of time by preparing an outfit for my date with my boyfriend, my heart rumbled in my chest as thoughts ran in my head.

A date with my... Boyfriend.

I dropped down in a squat as I held my burning cheeks and suppressed my squeals as those words repeated in my head.

In many romantic novels I read, I never expected to be the girlfriend. Specifically Uchiha Sasuke's girlfriend.

Even though we have been dating for a couple of months, I can't help to feel out of place. It's entirely scary and nerve-wracking to be the center of attention.

Sasuke's very experienced and smooth, so it's hard to keep up with his thoughts and his actions at times. I learned when he wants to express himself, he shows it physically. I wish I wasn't so timid when he wanted to hold me. Or when he tries to kiss me as couples do in movies.

"I'm an idiot." I gripped my locks and slid my back against the wall. It didn't take long for me to figure Sasuke out. Whenever I catch him gazing at me with those dark eyes, I get goosebumps. Anyone would think he's just staring. But I can sense so many heated emotions when our eyes meet.

Every time, I froze and became speechless. My mind scatters and wonder what's on his mind. As his girlfriend, I don't know what his next moves are. Sasuke always surprises me with hugs and kisses. But his touches and lips are getting very... hasty and mischievous.

I fear that his heart may break because of my shyness...

And my purity.

He mentioned it days ago when he dropped me off.

"You're so fucking innocent." He answered in a breath.

"Is that... bad?" I asked him. He sighed and patted my back.

"For you, no. For me, ...maybe." His pats decreased and he motioned his hand up and down my back.

"I'm sorry." I apologized immediately. As he comforts me, I feel dreadful for being complicated.

"No. It's fine..." He told me in a calm voice.

I signed as sat there with my forehead on my knees. Thinking about how I can be a great girlfriend to him. I don't want to disappoint him for my lack of experience. To be honest, I'm not sure how relationships work.

I know that things happen and I'm aware that we might not be for each other. And not everyone has a happy ending. Sadly, books or TV shows don't have a manual guide to a successful relationship.