I'm sorry | Rui Kamishiro angst|

'RUI!!'

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Prepare for more (attempted) angst

TW: $h, throwing up, body shaming (for like one line), self hatred.
Emu POV:
I lay still next to Rui-kun, my arms wrapped around him as if he's a stuffed teddy. I hear shuffling coming from nene-chan and Tsukasa-Kun's mattress. Nene-chan is sitting up rubbing her eyes. I quietly and gently move behind her.

"BOO!"

"AHHH!! EMU! DON'T DO THATT!!" She screams, Tsukasa-kun lazily gets up and Rui-kun shoots up covering his ears.

"Hehe! Good morning Tsukasa-kun." I say as I crawl over and kiss him. Rui-kun sits down on the mattress and hugs Nene-chan from behind.

"Good Morning Emu and Nene." He says as he kisses my forehead. "And good morning sleepyhead." He says as he looks at Rui-kun.

"Good morning.." he mumbled. He didn't look like he was in the best mood but I decide not to push.

"Does anyone want anything to eat?" Nene asks breaking the 5 second silence.

"Sure! But what will we eat?" I say.

"Can't we make something?" Tsukasa says.

"Well we all know I can't cook, Nene-chan doesn't know much so Tsukasa-kun is going to have to cook." I say.

"And why me?" He asks.

"Well because you used to cook all the time for Saki-chan so why not?" I say with a smile.

-Time skip because I'm lazy-
(They finished eating and went home)
Rui POV:
As I got home my stomach felt full, I don't like that feeling, it makes me feel fat.

I decide to suck it up and go take a shower. I take off my shirt and pants leaving my binder and underwear exposed. I look at myself in the mirror. I fucking hate my body, actually, I hate myself for that matter. I look at my underwear about to take it off when I notice a dark red stain, Fuck.

I quickly start searching the bathroom cabinet until I find what I'm looking for. 'Bingo.' I thought to myself as I pull it out. It's a pack of pads, hasn't been opened before. I only bought it a week ago so obviously it hasn't been opened. I open it and take one out, I place of on top of my clean clothes and undress myself fully. I look at myself in the mirror once more, specifically my chest.

'Why can't I just be normal for once? I'm so fucking stupid. I need to keep this hidden from the other or they probably won't accept me. Oh who am I kidding, they probably hate me either way, only being there for me because they want to seem like good friends, if I can even call them that.' I notice a tiny bit of blood drip on the floor and immediately rush to the shower. I clean myself and quickly we dressed.

I stare at myself in the mirror. 'I don't feel right, I don't look right. I hate it, I Hate It, I HATE IT!' With that I ball up my fist and punch the mirror. It breaks into so many tiny pieces. I grab one of the pieces and place it on my arm. I run it down but it doesn't do much, or at least compared to a blade.

I place down the shard of glass and put a bandaid over my cut. I go downstairs to eat something and Ena had just walked in with Mizuki, Mafuyu and Kanade.

"Hi Rui!" Ena said as she ran up to hug me. "I haven't seen you in a few days, you ok?" She asks.

"Yea I'm fine, I was at Emu's house." I reply.

"Ah ok. Well, we'll be up in my room if you need us!" She said.

"Alright!" And with that they walked up to Ena's room. I look for something to eat and settle on a small pack of cookies. ( you know like those small packs of cookies that come in like a box that says 10 pack on it? No? Ok just think those little tiny teddy pack rip-off's.) I take them up to my room and eat, I go onto the WxS YouTube channel and their currently live. I join the live and watch them for a bit. I finish the pack of cookies and thrown the rubbish in the bin. I feel sick but think nothing of it.