FIND ME (BXB)✔️

Chapter 23

Warning!!! This chapter includes self harming and drugs overuse that may trigger some.

HARRIS

I slowly opened my eyes and was almost blinded by the light peeking behind the black curtains.

It's already morning? I sat up stretching and yawning at the same time with my headache once again. "Oww!" I groaned in pain before dropping my hands on my palm.

It hurts...

"Har-har, you alright?" Lucas asked half asleep beside me and I nodded. I watched him try to open his eyes but it's completely useless.

The party ended around four in the morning. Guess someone got caught up and slept late. Lucas hiccuped and I smiled, feeling my body burning up for some reason.

I could feel my cheek burning up and I could only watch Lucas' defenceless self move around the bed.

Lucas looks so attractive today. My lips parted was my body continued burning up-

Wait!

"What's wrong?" Lucas asked, leaning his face close and I could feel the urge to push him down. I blushed at my thoughts.

No! It's the command! I can't! I can't do that to Lucas!

"You're worrying me..." Lucas trailed off as he watched me avoid his eyes.

I need to make him leave before I lose it.

"I'm sorry Lucas but can you leave me for awhile?" I forced a smile. Lucas was a bit shocked by my request but decided to be obedient.

"Okay... Do you want some serial killers before I go?" I chuckled at that.

Oh Lucas...

"It's painkillers, Lucas." I corrected and he slowly nodded.

"Really?" He asked and I nodded. "I mean Cereals and painkillers though..."

I shook my head amused but he really needs to go.

"Oh Lucas... I'll be fine just go for now."

"Call me if you need anything okay."

"Sure." I smiled and waited for him to leave. Lucas was obviously hesitant but I need to be alone.

The empty room made me feel relieved and I stood up slowly to lock the doors.

What should I do? My body feels heavy and burning. Am I in heat? Can that bastard actually do this?

I was standing for so long that it made my head spin a little. I groaned, closing my eyes as I tried to hold on something but failed to and I just fell on the floor. I hit my head again and I groaned in pain. "Ahh! Shit!"

Dammit! My poor head!

"Aww..." I clenched my fist as I pressed my head on the floor. "It hurts so much..." My eyes watered up before I slowly looked up and noticed the bottle of medicine on the cabinet.

Maybe that would help...

I almost crawled to get there and quickly opened the bottle when I got a hold of it. I took two pills before leaning against the bed, enjoying the silence.

The room is dark and empty. The only light is coming from the peeking sun between the curtains and it somehow comforts me.

It's a bit lonely though because it reminded me of what happened yesterday.

'You're being a jealous freak!'

I chuckled pitifully as I felt my eyes watered up. I'm sorry for being a jealous freak. It won't happen again...