The Uncontrolable Thoughts

SOULMATE

Soulmate: Someone who you have a special relationship with, and who you know and love very much

The term soulmate is something I never used as it never even crossed my mind that I could be so deeply connected with a single person but now I finally have a reason to use it.

I have found my soulmate. No it isnt my lover but my best friend. She is all I could ever want and more. I couldn't ask for a better person to be in my life. She is there for me whenever I need her the most and most importantly, I am most happy around her.

I know that when i'm with her, I can just be myself and I never need to pretend when i'm around her. I love her so much, I am so lucky to have her in my life and I genuinly couldnt ask for any more from one person.

I believe that the term 'soulmate' is very loosely used now and has lost its meaning as people throw it around to everyone but I use this word wholehartedly towards this person, my person.

I've known her for over 5 years but the real connection only formed just over a year ago now, It is hard to believe that I could get so close to someone within such a short time, it feels like i've been this close with her for decades. The love I feel for her only growns by every message or call.

If you told me 2 years ago that I would be sat here writing about this person being my soulmate, I would've been a bit shocked but at the end of the day, life does still have it's surprises. And she is the best thing to ever happen to me.

As much as I dislike my old friends, I have to thank them for pushing us this close together. We got closer because they were terrible friends and without them being like that, I wouldnt have made the incredible memories that I currently have with her.

A life without her is colourless, she is the light at the end of my incredible dark tunnel and I could only hope that I am the same for her.

"Blood is thicker than water" is always said by family but what they dont tell you is that being blood related doesnt mean shit, I dont need her to have the same blood as me to know that this is the person I would happily have in my life till the end and is closer to me than any of my family could ever be.

I couldnt imagine my life without her.

The moment I knew that we were soulmates was when she asked me if we should get an appartment together when we move out. Yes, this may seem insignificant to you but to me this signified that I finally found a true friend who also believes that we can continue to be great friends as we grow older.

I can't put into words or actions how much this girl means to me, she is everything I could ever ask for in a best friend and I could only hope that she sees that too.

The comfort I feel when around her is an experience I can't get anywhere else, She heals me. She has been there with me through the worst points in my life and yet she never ran once.

The conststant smile that remains on my face when around her is astounding as I never thought a single person could do that to me. She is my breath of fresh air, she is the sun on them miserable days, I couldn't live without her.

She understands me more than anything, she accepts my weird little habits and has taken the time to understand the issues that I have going on with me.

She knows me better than anyone and I wouldn't have it any other way. I have never wanted anyone to know evey single detail of my life until she came along.

She tells me that I saved her life ,that may be true, but she has saved me more than anyone could ever know. The memories we have created will always stay with me as I hope she will continue to stay by my side.

I didn't think that I was living until her, I have done things I never would've done and that is all because she is here with me. I finally feel like a real teenager when I'm with her, I don't need to have any facade on and I can finally let go when I am just in her presence.

I try for her, I do it for her and maybe I even live for her sometimes.

I have never been so protective over someone in my life, when someone hurts her it leaves me with an incredible amount of anger. I will never understand how someone can hurt such a pure soul like hers.

She makes me want to improve myself, she makes me excited for the future we are going to have together.

I will admit that sometimes I feel like I dont deserve her but she has decided to stay by me in all them times. To me there isnt a better person on this planet and there never will be. I hope that eveyone can find there soulmate in this world as I would be broken without mine.

Everyone needs a best friend, one you can rely on, one you can tell all your embarrassing stories too without feeling shameful, one you can cry in front of and one you can wholeheartedly trust.

She is not just my best friend, she is my other half. A part that I couldnt live without.

I love her.

This is dedicated to my soulmate, I hope by reading this she knows that it is her that Im talking about, I love you so much and I hope you know that. <3