Friday, 23rd of December
After I took a shower and read the rest of my book that I didn't finish last night I headed downstairs to grab another snack. The hallway was cleaned up. Much better looking than it was before. I wonder what Draco is doing and how long he put up with Vervain's tantrum.
As I made it to the kitchen I see Mippy cooking what looks like roasted potatoes. The smell of the potatoes made me sick, so I grabbed whatever I needed quickly. I made it back to my room in a hurry trying not to throw up on the way there.
As I ate my snack that I got from the kitchen an owl ran into the window. I quickly noticed that it is my mother's owl. I run and open the window and grab the letter.
Dear daughter,
I have come to understand you will not do what needs to be done to make your future so much better than it will with a child. I still do not agree with your decision but I have come to an understanding that I cannot change your mind, so I have faith that you will do everything in your power that you can to make your future safe for you and your baby. I would have rathered you to have kids later on in life but I guess we don't get to pick and choose. I don't want you to be a mess when Draco doesn't want to be in the kid's life, that's what they all do. So please my dearest daughter, come home so I can properly help you since again, I did go through this with you when I figured out I was pregnant with you. As you know we are hosting a Christmas Eve ball, so I expect you will be home tonight so we can do your dress fittings. Please come home so we can properly talk about what your future plans are.
Sincerely, your mother.
As soon as I finished reading the letter Mum sent me, I slammed it on the desk so hard my hand stung. How could she think Draco could be just like my father, and leave when he feels he can't do it anymore? I get interrupted in my thoughts by someone knocking on my door.
"Who is it?" I question trying to put the letter somewhere other than in my hand.
"It's me. The father of your child," he yells from behind the door.
" I don't know the father of my child, wrong person." I joke as I open the door.
"Oh, wrong person," Draco says as he comes into my room.
"So?" I question as I start to remake the side of the bed that I messed up when I took my nap earlier.
"Well, I told Lilly about you being pregnant. She didn't take it very well." he said.
"Well, that's.... expected." I say.
"Listen Y/n, I think we should talk. Talk about the future and how this affects everyone." He huffs out.
" I thought we did talk about it, you are there for me and the baby If we need you, and you do what you do while you figure out your life with your future wife or something," I say. "But that's not what you want, you want nothing to do with me and the baby cause you wanna make Vervain happy and comfortable," I say as I sit down and drink the rest of the water Mippy left for me.
He doesn't say anything. He knows what I said is exactly what he's thinking. He doesn't want to be in the baby's life and he doesn't wanna be in my life either. Fine by me. I was perfectly fine before I told him about the baby.
"Quick question before you make up your mind for shore. Because there is no wanting to be in the baby's life, then not, then wanting to be in the baby's life, then not. There is only one chance to back out. This is your chance to make up your mind. Is this your idea, or is it Lillys?" I ask.
He doesn't say anything for a good 5 minutes. We just sit there in silence staring at each other, knowing why this is going down right now. I know I should probably be getting ready to leave since I'm not welcome here no more. So I start to gather my stuff around the room.
"It's both of our ideas." He says as I grab my bag.
" I don't believe you one bit!" I scream at him.
"You don't have to! Your not HER! She is what matters in my life. And you. You have caused me so much stress. I can't Fathom Not having her in my life. I've had you in my life and all you've caused me is pain." He says with his voice cracking. "I want out," he whispers.
"I want out so bad, you don't understand! It's one thing after another. We get in fights that last weeks, then we go back to being best fucking friends. Then we fight again. Then it goes back to normal. Y/N IT'S LIKE FUCKING WHIPLASH! For years and years, I have been dealing with this. And I can deal with it no more. And it would just be bad for the baby if I ended up staying in the picture." He says.
I have nothing to stay. I just stare at him. No emotion showing on my face. The numbness has taken over. Yet he has dried tears on his cheek and his eyes are red. That's what I should look like, I should be the one crying, I'm the one that's having to raise a kid by myself. Alone.
"You. YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO FUCKING CRY!" I yell at him. I grab the nearest thing I can a sling it at him. Still, no tears have escaped my eyes. "IM THE ONE HAVING TO RAISE THEM ON MY OWN! NOT YOUR OWN! MY OWN. IM ALREADY SO FUCKING SCARED TO DO THIS WITH SOMONE, BUT NOW IM EVEN MORE PETRIFIED." I throw and throw stuff till there is nothing else to throw, his lip is busted, he's definitely going to have a black eye, and bruises are gonna start to appear soon.
"I'm sorry." He mumbles as I walk out of the room.
"Whatever you say Draco," I say as I exit the room. I can feel stinging in my eyes and my throat starts to close. I run. I run to the only place I know where to go when I get in a fight with Draco. Lucius's office. I bang on the door till it opens.
"Wow is everything ok?" Lucius asks.
I can't make out words. So I just hug him. I squeeze him till I physically can't no more. And I cry. I cry so much I don't know if ill ever be able to cry anymore. After An hour or two, I finally calm down, calm enough to talk.
"I'm sorry," I mumble.
"Y/n. why are you sorry?" He asks.
"I'm so sorry that I'm the child that's carrying your grandchild," I say through tears.
"Oh, no don't be sorry! I would rather you be my grandchild's mother than anyone else, especially over Lilly." He says as he hugs me harder and laughs.
"Ah Lilly, the root of all my problems." I chuckle.
"Oh Merlin's beard, what did she do this time?" he asks as he lets go of the hug.
"She's the reason why Draco doesn't want to be a part of the baby's life, and why I have to raise the baby on my own." I say as I sit down on the chair in front of his desk.
"Just because he doesn't wanna be a part of the baby's life doesn't mean me and Narcissa won't be there for you and the baby. We want to be there for you. As much as you won't believe it, I and Narcissa have considered you as one of our own since you Draco started being friends." Lucius says. His comment makes me start crying.
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I know I haven't updated in a long time, but I just let y'all know that I have finals and state testing this week and I also have the flu, I'll try to edit some of the drafts I have and update them sometime this week. This might be the only update till next month until I'm at the beach. (I get bored at the beach so I read and write) anyway, I hope everything is ok and if u need to talk, my DM's are ALWAYS OPEN!! Please remember to take care of yourself be4 u take care of someone else.
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