in the room where you sleep

seventeen

November 1999

"You look great! I don't see what's wrong with the outfit." Johnny has been standing in front of the hotel room mirror for the past 30 minutes nitpicking at what he was wearing. He had on his boots, blue jeans, a light blue-ish grey shirt and a black jacket with a beanie on his head because Johnny's hair had gotten longer and had no intention of doing anything with it.

"I don't know. I feel like it looks like I'm giving a vibe of 'I don't care to be here'" He kept messing with his shirt and jacket. I got up off the bed and stood in front of him, blocking his view of the mirror. I fixed his shirt, buttoning it up, leaving the top button undone. I adjusted his jacket and straightened it out.

"No, it doesn't I promise. No one is going to care because they're there for you, not to judge you on your outfit choice. We both know Tim is going dressed as the grim reaper, of course in a good way, but I think you have him beat." I chuckled. He smiled and kissed me sweetly, placing his hand on my cheek.

"You're right, you're right. It's fine. Now you, my future wife, never fail to look so beautiful." He grabbed my hand and spun me around, pulling me close to him.

"Just one more month and I'm legally and forever your problem." He laughed and shook his head.

"You're not a problem. Never have, never will."

"Good answer. We better get going. Ceremony starts soon." I handed him his sunglasses and we headed downstairs to the ceremony. Hollywood Boulevard was filled with tons of people. We couldn't take more than two steps forward without Johnny stopping to take photos and sign autographs, but I didn't mind. I was just in awe of seeing just how many people truly admired him and appreciated him like I did. We got closer to where his star was and I joined up with Tim on the side while Johnny had to go up to the podium and speak. He gave a wonderful speech and they started the unveiling of his star. It was so pretty and shiny. After the reveal, everyone took photos around his star. After a while, it was wrapped up and we ended up grabbing dinner with Tim and couple other people from the Walk of Fame committee.

"Thank you again for accepting the offer. The cermony was great." One of the women spoke.

"Thanks for having me. I appreciate the consideration." After a couple hours of talking, drinking, and having dinner, Tim and a couple others had left, leaving just Johnny, the other lady, and me at the table. The lady kept staring at Johnny, talking to him and laughing and being a bit too flirtatious. I could tell Johnny was not having it. He kept ignoring any advances she was making as she was touching his arm and laughing at things he was saying that wasn't meant to be funny. She was clearly drunk, but it was still uncomfortable. Johnny wrapped his arm around my thigh, light squeezing. I took it as a signal to leave.

"Um, we've got to go." I stood up and Johnny did as well, reaching his arm around my waist.

"Oh, well, if you'd like to reach me, here's my card." She slid her card across the table. I was drunk and fed up. I reached down, slamming my hand on her card, showing my ring to make sure she got the hint. I pulled it off the table and grabbed it.

"Thanks, we'll think about it." We turned and walked off out of the lobby. I crumpled the card in my hand and tossed it in the trash.

"How professional was that, huh?" He chuckled. I rolled my eyes and laughed it off.

"So weird. Let's go back to the room. I'm drunk and hungry." Johnny looked at me and laughed, kissing me passionately before we walked outside. We headed down the walkway and back to our hotel. Without hesistation, I took off my clothes and went straight to the shower. Johnny followed behind, picking me up and wrapping my legs around his waist, getting into the shower with me. He pinned me against the shower wall, kissing me deeply and slowly.

"You know I love you, right?" The pace quickened and he wrapped his hand around my throat, trailing his lips down my neck, leaving plently of hickeys where he possibly can. At this point, my head was spinning and I was feeling spaced out. My moans got messier and louder.

"I know. I love you so m-much. John- I'm c-close." I felt out of breath and felt a knot in my stomach and before I knew it, we both had climaxed and finished. Johnny pulled me into his chest and held me close, kissing my head.

"You're all I need and want. Don't you forget that." I wrapped my hands around his back and kissed him. He stepped out of the shower and went back to the room and I finished up, eventually putting on a shirt and sweatpants and crawling into bed with him, closing my eyes and drifting off to sleep.

Thursday Morning

I woke up with a pounding headache. I couldn't keep my thoughts in order. All I know is Johnny had some press things to do today and I did not want to get up.

"baby." Johnny leaned down, pulling the comforter away from my head and kissed me. I groaned and covered my eyes. He chuckled and pulled me up and sat me in his lap.

"Now I know someone's a lightweight."

"And now I know I hate drinking. Never doing that again." I slowly sat up and buried my head in his chest.

"I know the feeling. I'm going to head out, but i'll be back to get you if you want to come to the second press thing tonight. I got you some breakfast and asprin for that pretty little head of yours. Make sure you take it. I love you." He kissed me and left the room. I sat up and leaned against the headboard and grabbed the aspril and swallowed them. All I knew is that it was going to be a long morning of sleeping it off.

5:30 PM

I woke up from a really long nap and thankfully the hangover was gone. I decided to go ahead and get ready before Johnny got back. I wasn't going for fancy. I threw on black knee ripped jeans, one of Johnny's white shirts, and a black and dark blue flannel with my vans. I put my hair in a messy bun and did my makeup.

"Well, would you look at that. She's alive!" Johnny walked in and greeted me with a kiss. I chuckled and stood up and gave him a big hug.

"I know. I thought I was on my deathbed. Thank you for breakfast and the medicine. Helped a great deal. You're my hero." He smiled and sat down on the bed with me.

"What time are we leaving for the next one?" He looked at his watch, doing mental math.

"We have about 30 to 45 minutes, so we have to cuddle up." He grabbed me and pulled me on top of him, wrapping his arms around me. I chuckled and laid my head back down. We stayed in bed for little bit longer before we had to leave. We left the hotel and were taken to the press panel thing he had to do at the convention center. We got escorted in to the backstage area with the other cast of the movie. After talking with one another they all went out on stage and got seated together in a row. I watched from the side as they were talking about the movie and answering the crowd's questions. After taking all the questions, the presenter asked them questions directly.

"So, Johnny onto you. Do you have anything exciting coming up? Any new projects?" He asked.

"I have a few things developing, but the main exciting thing is uh, I'm getting married next month to my incredible fiance, so that's what's happening." The crowd was cheering and aweing. It was cute to see the big smile on his face when he talked about it. Made me feel so loved and adored. He looked over and winked at me and I blew him a kiss and he grabbed it, putting it in his pocket. God I love this man.

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We got back to the room and made our way under the covers. We laid there just looking at each other, taking in each others company. I had my legs on his lap and his hand was stroking up down them while the other was intertwined with mine. He placed gentle kisses on my hand, playing with my ring.

"I can't wait to marry you. I say it so much that it's become redundant, but I'm serious." He softly spoke. I smiled and ran my fingers through his hair, just admiring him.

"I don't think its redundant. I love that you're excited. It's reassuring. I certainly can't wait."

"To stand there, watch you walk down the aisle in the most beautiful white dress, sharing our vows, and finally be able to take on the world as our own together as husband and wife."

"And to finally marry the man I love so much will be the most rewarding part." He pulled me in and kissed me. I couldn't be more happier than I am right now.