𝗨𝗟𝗧𝗥𝗔𝗩𝗜𝗢𝗟𝗘𝗡𝗖𝗘 - 𝘄.𝗿.

xiv. 𝘄𝗵𝘆 𝘆𝗲𝗹𝗹 𝘄𝗵𝗲𝗻 𝗻𝗼 𝗼𝗻𝗲 𝗰𝗮𝗻 𝗵𝗲𝗮𝗿 𝘆𝗼𝘂?

RISING
IRIS JONES

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WARREN ROJAS (drummer, the six): i couldn't stop thinking about the guy i saw in her apartment. the guy standing behind her when we were standing in the doorway. i thought about it all morning that day. i kept questioning if she had a boyfriend, or if he was a family member. i just felt like i needed to know.

when we got to the apartment complex, eddie and i both walked up to her door. we were laughing the whole way to her place, but we could hear arguing from inside her apartment the moment we were outside of it, we stopped laughing almost instantly.

IRIS JONES (singer, songwriter): matt and i started arguing right after he got up that morning. i can't even tell you how it started, i just know eventually he brought up my plans for that day. he said to me, "what makes you think it's okay to go out with other guys when you're supposed to be with me? i'm your boyfriend, remember?" i should've broke it off right then. i should've left, ran, done something. but i let him talk to me like that. again. for the hundredth time. i let it get further.

anyway, i said back to him, "you are. you are my boyfriend. i am with you because i love you, and these guys are just friends of my sisters. we aren't even that close. i am just going because i want to make nice with my sister's bandmates." i remember, so vaguely, wrapping my arms around his waist as he sat a cup of coffee on the counter behind him. he was freakishly taller than me. he didn't hug me back. i think that's why i remember that part specifically. looking back, that move really told the entire story of our love. it was completely one sided.

EDDIE ROUNDTREE (bassist, the six): i grew up an only child. no younger siblings to defend, no older siblings to defend me. when i started getting closer to iris, she felt more and more like a little sister to me. not only was she the youngest of the seven of us, but she was also this fragile piece of magic. don't ever tell her i said this because she'd probably kill me; but, iris was a soft, broken, beautiful person. i knew that from the moment i saw her. something fucked with her, something had hurt her so bad that she just wasn't happy.

at the time i thought it was her sister that broke her, given the half-ass conversation they had in the lawn of his house. then that day when warren and i were outside of her door, we heard hard arguing between iris and some guy. he was saying awful things to her, things like; "you're such a whore," and "being with you is such a waste of fucking time."

then at that point i thought that he was the cause of all her pain. that he was the reason she couldn't be openly herself, why she's so closed off when someone raises their voice, etc..

but there was so much more to iris than anyone, even myself, knew.

IRIS: it got to the point where i didn't even want to go out with eddie and warren, but i needed out of the apartment. i needed to give him time to cool off. to collect himself before i tried to butter up to him. i mean, i just got him back the night before, i just got to kiss him again, just got to feel him again, just got to hold him again. i wasn't going to let that go. i couldn't pull myself away. i couldn't tell him to leave like i did the time before. even though i should've, i couldn't.

i was very closed off when i hung out with eddie and warren that day. i kept zoning out, replaying my relationship with matt over and over. its dumb, i know. i just didn't know what to do. i wasn't completely stupid, i had this instinct every time i got within ten feet of matthew that he was never going to change, that he was still bad for me, but i just couldn't let him go. not until someone told me that it was time to finally give up on him.

DAISY JONES (singer, songwriter): i was so mad at my sister when i found out that she was back with matthew. she never even actually told me, her apartment was unlocked one day and i just sort of let myself in. when i walked into her bedroom, they were asleep on her bed. i ended up getting so upset with her that we ended up getting in an argument. i said something like, "fine, you want to get hit by him every day for the rest of your life, then nobody's stopping you." and then i walked away from her.

[pauses]

i left her, again. i should've held her, consoled her, helped her. but i didn't. again. so everything that happened to her the two months after i seen her last, we're partially my fault. [sniffs] god, i'll never forgive myself.

IRIS: i should've just listened to her then. she was warning me. i just think there was a point in me that wanted to yell at her. tell her, "you don't know him like i do! you just came into the picture. you've never even met him!"

but i wanted to also yell at matthew and say, "stop hurting me and making it my fault! you've broken me!"

then i also wanted to yell at my parents and tell them how shitty they were to me and daisy. how they never cared.

i wanted to yell at jim for making me grow up to quick. exposing me to acts that i shouldn't have even thought of that young.

i wanted to yell at the entire world.

but why yell when no one can hear you?

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LILLY SPEAKS !

sigh

this chapter is so short
compared to my previous
ones. so, my apologies.

i promise y'all,
THINGS. WILL. LOOK. UP.

(^ yes those r repeat
statements from last update.
i just needed to remind y'all)

this chapter is literally
only 1000 words. and i
sincerely apologize.

y'all waited too long
for a short ass chapter. IM
SORRY!

pls don't yell at me. i'm sensitive.

i love you all, & if i don't see ya',
good morning, good evening, & goodnight