Why I did it

Chapter 8

I feel his hands roam my body before I even see his face. I hear his voice growl in my ear. Telling me to stay still. That he wasn't done with me yet. I felt disgusting. Every move of his hands felt like smearing dung across my body.

"Why'd you do it Rae?" He growled again. Moving in front of me, green eyes filling my vision. "Why'd you kill him?" HIs hands wandered lower, pulled me closer. Then a hand snapped up to my neck, squeezing harder and harder cutting off my oxygen. A red haze filled my eyes and-

I shot up in bed grasping my neck and gasping. Groaning, I fell back against my pillows and wiped my hands over my face. Just as I was about to fall back asleep. My alarm went off. I groaned more and got up to turn it off.

6:30. Huh I slept in. I went through my morning routine and just barely made it in time to my bus. When I got to school I was stopped by a familiar face.

"Long time no see." Those green eyes froze me in place. N-no. He's supposed to be in jail.

"I- when did you get out?" I could barely get the words out. Wondering what the hell was going on. Kai just laughed and smiled at me.

"I'm on probation. They let me come back to school." He smiled again. My stomach dropped as he stepped closer. The shrill sound of the bell cut off what he was about to say and I dashed off to my class. Silently panicking as I sat down. Ariel looked at me and immediately knew something was wrong. She asked as class started and I wrote it out for her. Not wanting to use my words.

Goddamn. You can kill one abuser but freeze up in front of another. An annoying voice in my head said.

Shut up. I said back as Ariel wrote back asking if I would be okay. I just nodded slowly and focused on the lecture. My mind raced as I wrote down notes. Mostly wondering why the hell they would let him get close to me. The protective order we had against should still be in effect. I shot up from my seat the minute the bell went off and raced to the assistant principals office.

The way my school works is there's a different assistant principal for each grade. And they move up with the grades until they start back with sophomores. I headed to the sophomore office and asked if she was in. She had been with the case since he threatened to shoot up the school two years ago. I told the girl behind the desk what was going on and she called the assistant principal and told her I was there.

I walked into her office and asked if I could see the copy of the P.O. and when she handed it over I saw the date of expiration. "Oh shit."

She said language and I apologized. We went with a shorter order so that I would be safe but we wouldn't ruin his life. And we just passed the court date. The P.O. was out of date.

She asked what had happened and I told her everything. She looked grim and looked back over the paper. She sighs and looks at me. "You know he can talk to you now. There's nothing stopping him from being near you now."

"I know ma'am." I rub my hands over my face as she hands me a tardy slip for my next class. "That's what I'm afraid of." I thank her and step out of her office to see him in the hallways. I kept my head down as I head to my class and give the slip to my teacher apologizing for being late.

My phone goes off and I pull it out to see a messenger request:

Kai Reiner: I missed you Rae. Let's meet up sometime and catch up.

I felt bile rise in my throat and I shoved it down. This man threatened what Chase did and never had the chance to do it. And somehow that makes him even more unpredictable. Even more... scary??

I didn't know what Kai had planned. But I knew he wouldn't rest until he got me alone. I got another notification from messenger.

Kai Reiner: Who knows? Maybe something will happen again?