Hope ?

Chapter 32

i'm sorry y'all this new book i started got me inna chokehold and i forgot i got my own book to write 😗😗

Simone POV

After a few hours, Imani and I finally managed to move my things back in the dorm and we kicked Eryn out. Surprisingly, she didn't put up much of a fight which made me suspicious, but I didn't wanna read too much into it.

I was happy to be back with Imani. Part of me thinks I should have made her wait, but I missed her just as much as she did me. I even put my highlight back up on insta and noticed that she never even took down hers of me.

I hope I don't regret anything in the future, but all we can do now is move forward.

" What you thinking about ? " Imani interrupted my thoughts as she sat down.

I stood between her legs, " Us."

" You having second thoughts ? " She asked, looking down.

" Overthinking is more like it, " I admitted.

" I meant everything that I said ma, I'll say it everyday if I have to. I'm forever grateful you took another chance on me, " She said, pulling me onto her.

" I know you did and I meant my words too, it's just gonna take me a minute ya know ? " I replied, looking down at her.

" I understand and we can take it as slow as you need ma. Hell we don't even have to be officially back together yet, I just want you to know that I'm yours, " She said, rubbing on my thighs as I licked my lips.

" I'd like that, " I agreed as she said a small okay. She kissed my forehead and we just stayed in that position for a minute, holding each other.

After a while I was hungry so I decided to go get something to eat in the dining hall. I grabbed my beats and put on Hail Mary by 2Pac and headed out.

" La da da da da da da da, " I sang along as I approached the building. I just decided to get some pizza for right now as I waited in line.

" How come I've never your pretty self around ? " I heard a feminine voice ask me. I turned around and was met with what had to be a stem.

Stems over everybody I don't careee.

She was dark skinned with a buss down, but was wearing a wife beater, amir jeans, and jordan 4's. She also wore a lot of jewelry and had tattoos all over her arms.

I could ask you the same thing...

She smirked as I looked at her confused, but then blushed realizing I said that out loud.

Great job Simone.

" You talk out loud all the time ? " She chuckled, raising a brow as I literally face palmed myself.

" No ! I'm just... hungry is all ! " I quickly said as she laughed, it was cute too.

" Well hi hungry, I'm Willow, " She replied as I rolled my eyes but couldn't help but smile.

" I'm actually Simone, " I said as she nodded.

" Beautiful name, " She complimented as I blushed again.

What the fuck am I doing ? I'm supposed to be focused on fixing things with Imani.

But she did cheat on me...

But I love her, I'm sure of it ! And I know she meant what she said...

" Hello ? " Willow asked, waving her hand in my face as I shook my head.

" I'm sorry, I've been in my head a lot the past few weeks, " I admitted looking down.

" Aye I'mma Psychology major, maybe I could help. Grab yo food and we'll talk, " She insisted as I hesitated, but agreed.

Fuck it I guess.

I grabbed my pizza, found Willow, and sat with her. I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket and I checked it before sitting down.

Imani : wya ma ? thought u would brb ? 🥲

Simone : im actually gonna eat wit a friend rn

Imani : oh ight, ill see u inna bit then

" So what's on your mind princess ? " She asked as I almost blushed again at the name.

I started eating and explained everything that has happened in the last two weeks as Willow listened. She waited until I was done with no interruptions before she spoke up.

" If you want me to be honest, " She started, raising a brow as I nodded for her to continue. "sounds like yo girl ain't shit."

I was taken aback by this, but nonetheless decided to hear her out and urged her to continue.

" I mean let's look at the facts... she cheated as soon as her first love came back. She can use being high and "not having a clear head" as an excuse all she wants to convince you it was just a "mistake". Have you asked yourself if the roles were reversed what would have happened ?" Willow asked as I paused, I hadn't actually.

" I'll take yo silence as a no. Also you said that Eryn cheated on her multiple times, yet she turned around, did it to you, and Imani took her back ? She claimed she did knowing Eryn wouldn't give up, but that jus sounds like another excuse to me." She scoffed as I was silent again.

" Y'all may really love each other Simone... that's between you guys, but not everyone you love deserves you. Even tho she promised she wouldn't cheat again, if she did, she would know that you would take her back immediately. She would have the mindset that you would come back every time, just like how Eryn did with her. It's all a mind game," Willow concluded, letting me take in her words.

" Well damn, " Was all I could say as she sat back, manspreading. "what do I do then?"

" If I was you princess, I wouldn't have even thought about taking her back. I'm not you or y'alls relationship tho, so I can't tell you what to do, I can only give advice. I feel that you should ask yourself if she's really worth it. Is she worth you always questioning and overthinking everything moving forward in the relationship ? Is she worth you feeling anxious that her ex may try something again and succeed now that she's on campus ? You may say you can move past it, but in reality it will always be in the back of your mind," She replied, sipping her drink.

I couldn't even try to argue with that because I knew Willow was right. Even if I did move past it, the thought of Imani cheating again would always be there no matter what. I sighed as I put my head in my hands.

I've made a terrible mistake.

" Damn I'm gonna have to pack my things up again, " I huffed as Willow laughed and we finished up eating.

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