I'm not just your boy toy

20-On the right path

20-On the right path

Garrett's pov

Gosh, right now I can't work properly, I can't help but think about Wednesday night.

Two days ago, Brandon and I had one of the most emotional and overwhelming talks we ever had. I never thought it would happen but it did.

He told me some ugly and shameful things from his past which leads me to be concerned for him. I tried to convince him yet again to see a therapist. He refused of course.

Through this, he didn't flat-out reject the idea when I tried to make him understand how unusually hyperactive he is sexually and how it affects him. Progress?

So, as I could tell it took a toll on him, I let it slide for that night.

I don't know how to feel right now. On one side I'm really happy that he finally opened up to me but on the other side, I am deeply worried and concerned for him. I wasn't ready to hear what he had to say but I hope that I made a good job trying to understand.

Regardless, I didn't know opening up like that would take so much of a toll on him. I could tell he felt uncomfortable and so I give him space. I went out with Rachel. I talked to her but I refrained from talking about what happened.

Anyways, I haven't seen Brandon since last morning. I kinda miss him, especially his energetic energy. It really fills a hole in my apartment that I never thought it needed.

I really don't know if the fact he opened up to me like that is a step in the good direction. Why do I keep thinking we'll finally be in a relationship? I keep getting my hopes up for no reason. I know how Brandon is and he tends to give me some ideas and then destroys all hope.

For instance, I finally gained the courage to tell him I liked him but he didn't even understand what it truly meant. Are we really going in a good direction? Maybe we are really going by the flow as Brandon says. It's not something I'm used to it nor do I particularly enjoy it but for Brandon, I'd do anything.

I really hope we'll see each other today and that everything will be alright. Right now he's at work and so am I. So, maybe I can hope for something since it's Friday? I just hope the talk we had ruined nothing.

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I feel so relieved right now. Brandon still wants to see me. He said he wants to go to the bar tonight with me. He was right the other day, bars aren't my thing but if I get to be with Brandon, then I'm happy. It's been a while since we last been there and I'm still surprised he doesn't even go there anymore. He used to go everyday. He really did change thanks to me...

I just got home and I change my outfit for something more casual. I can't go in my work clothes again. I need to impress him. I need to show him I can be the understanding guy and who he needs...Gosh, Rachel really did give me a boost today.

I'm glad to see she's changing her mind a bit about him. I don't know why she does so now but it just makes me happy.

Regardless, I already ate luckily, so as soon as I'm done, I get in my car.

It doesn't take me long to arrive and I get in the bar. I immediately notice Brandon by the bar stool and instantly smile. Has he always been so attractive? What ruins slightly my mood is others staring at him but he doesn't seem to care because he's waiting for me...He noticed me! Immediately, I join him and sit next to him.

"Hey, the two lovebirds. Looking good together are we?" Brent smirks as he prepares drinks. Through, despite my small smile at the word lovebird, Brandon instead seems bothered by it.

"Oh, come on it's nothing like that." He says playfully. Nothing like that? I can't help but be disappointed...

"Hey, come on I was just saying! You two look so good together I swear! I'm almost jealous." Brent's comment warms my heart.