It's a little dangerous because I'm standing with my weak self
Depression obsessive sometimes kicks in again
Dear Yoongi,
The Idol who stands like a ghost by my side without knowing it.
I'm standing here, riddled with crippling anxiety. So many mocking whispers in the air, spears of judgement aimed at the broken soul that is me. I feel so weak, so insignificant here. I cast my gaze downwards, my eyes a murky, tragic shade of blue. I should have listened to the warnings; it's a little dangerous, because I'm standing with my weak self.
This oppressive darkness that has been hovering over me for so long, it pushes my shoulders heavier with every passing day I hide away. But I just can't help but stay in this one spot, with these morbid thoughts suffocating me. I try to fill my mind with more positive notions, just like how you always do, but still my depression obsessive sometimes kicks in again.
But even as I stand here, so lost, so alone, I am still comforted by your presence. Without even knowing it, you give me strength. I open my mouth and let out a sigh, knowing that in some way, you are there with me. Don't worry about me, Yoongi. I'm strong enough to fight the darkness with you. Together, we'll make it through.
Love,
Your biggest fan
