Afraid To Love Again

Chapter 17 - The text

"It's the weekend!", I screamed as I emerged out of bed in relief that another week's shit was over and I could finally catch a breath or two. Though I had a heck of a night yesterday and I didn't want to remember it. At least the cramps and growling had lessened.

After that sudden excitement explosion I had I immediately face planted myself back into my bed to catch on at least four more hours of sleep. It was just seven in the morning.
"Let's enjoy this lunch break while we can", I said as I nearly doze off back into Dreamland until my phone suddenly buzzed. I just groaned in annoyance and chose to ignore the message that came in and go back to my sleep. My eyes opened wide in curiosity and I sat up straight and turned on my phone

If it happens to be Kendricks playing around with me, I'm going to ruin his entire weekend.

It wasn't from Kendricks. It was the number I did not wish to see ever.

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2 unread messages

Where did you go so suddenly without a goodbye?

I miss you too much, Riri. I'm going to see you soon.

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Ace.

"Mom! Mom!", I ran downstairs calling out. My vision was blurry because of the pool of tears in my eyes.

"Honey, what's wrong?", She immediately left the dishes to hold me as soon as I ran to her, "What is it?", She asked growing increasingly concerned

"He's coming, He wants to see me here. I don't want to see him. He makes me weak", I blurted out finding it difficult to catch my breath

"Who's coming here? Erica, pull yourself together", I heard her tone of voice as if she was nervous for me.
"Breathe, Erica?", She noticed how I started acting up again and sat me down on the stool nearby in the kitchen. I had never seen her so worried because of me. She ran back to me with a glass of water and held it up for me to drink. Two tiny sips were all I could take in. She put the glass down and rubbed my back making me calm down.
She waited and waited as she held my hand in both of hers until she was sure I was calm enough.

"He won't come, okay. You're fine"

Mom escorted me to my room and tucked me into bed like her little seven year old. She sat at the edge of my bed as she watched me try to sleep. It only felt like a minute when I woke up breathing heavily as if I had woken up from a nightmare. I was sweating. I was shaking. I was going crazy, wasn't I?

Ring ring

And that was the last thing I needed right now. It was Kendricks calling. I declined the call in a second without hesitating. Why? I realized I was starting to open my heart up to him. I never wanted to, but I was beginning to trust another guy. What if he's the same? Like Blake said.

I switch off my phone so I could try to get some sleep and forget everything for a while. Or it could just lead to another nightmare.

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Tossing and turning in bed, I was finding it difficult to get the sleep I'd been longing for a whole week. I was a wreck once again.
Just because of a freaking text.
I turn on my phone again and the sudden exposure of light makes me wince as I've been buried under my duvet for three hours.
No texts or calls. Neither Amelia nor Kendricks had called. I suddenly hear a soft knock on the door. I went on to open the door thinking it was probably dad because my mom doesn't knock anymore.