Waiting for Jhoyz

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He led me to a table near the glass window. Its a good spot. From here you can see the botanical garden that was setup with small rock benches and a lot of bonsai trees.

" here you go.." He said and placed spaghetti and chicken nuggets for me plus my favorite brand of apple juice drink.

Then he placed another spaghetti and a slice of caramel cake near him and coke. He wipe the fork and spoon with tissue and place it on my plate.

" you should eat first then just think again later, ok? " he said while looking at me. " come on..eat.."

I look at my plate and spear the chicken nugget with fork. He opened the ketchup bottle and pour some on a saucer and place that next to my plate. I dip my nuggets in ketchup took a bite and look at him.

When he see that Im eating he took his fork and started eating his spaghetti. He must have felt my eyes on him because he look up from his plate and slightly raised his eyebrow.
" what..?"

" how do you know I like spaghetti and nuggets with ketchup? Are you a stalker? "
I asked him as I eat another nugget.

He suddenly got his hanky and wipe my chin as if its the most natural thing in the world.
" uhhm.. I just guess it. You look like a chicken nuggets kind of girl. As for the spaghetti, its my favorite." He said then proceeded to eat again.

"Hmmmm..." I said then I pick the cheese on top of my spaghetti and eat it all. Then I eat the pasta and sauce.

I heard him chuckle and I look up. He makes a good sound when he does it. His eyes seem to grow smaller since he has chinky eyes.

I wrinkle my nose at him and look outside the window. There are birds flitting from the bird feeder.
I sighed again.

I would just like to be free like the birds. They dont have to answer to anything. They fly when they want and eat when they get hungry. Sleep when night time comes.

" hey let your problem solve itself. Just eat for now ..." I heard him say and I look at him. He's already finish with the pasta dish and now attacking his cake. He slice it with his fork and put it on his mouth. He then chew with his eyes close.

I smiled.

He suddenly open his eyes and look at me intently that I blushed and look down on my hands. He made me feel something. Like he is looking at something pretty and he cant take his eyes off it.

Pft! Im not pretty. Even I know it.
I look up at him an he is still looking at me slowly chewing his cake.

" stop staring! " I told him and he smiled.

" sorry...its the first time you smiled at me...I was just...." He didnt finish his sentence and I raised my eyebrows.

" and what...? " I asked him.

He just shake his head and smiled. Then he ate the last morsel of cake.

I tried to open my juice bottle but it wont budge. He gently take it from my hands and opened it. Then he gave it back to me.

" drink up...we will go somewhere." He told me and I shake my head. I drank the juice, close the cap and stood up.

" no mister. Im not going anywhere with you.." I told him.
" thank you for the food and the juice.. and for the company.. I just want to be alone.." I walk away from him and was glad he didnt follow me.

I walk to the gate of the university to the bus stop. I got up paid my fare and look outside the window. I became sad again.

I went down when the bus reach the its destination. I was in the heart of the city. I walk slowly and look at the stores and boutiques but I didnt go inside any of them.

When I get tired from walking the sun is already going down. I took a deep breath and went to the bus terminal and ride back.

" baby...is that you? " my mom asked from inside after I closed the door.

" yes mommy. " I said. I went to the living room. She has a visitor but I didnt see who it was. I kissed her on the cheek. " Im tired..can I just go to sleep mommy? "

" but baby...you have to eat dinner ..." She said to me.

" im not hungry...Can i just sleep?" I asked her again.

She must have sensed my mood. She kissed me and just nod her head. I saw daddy coming out of the library. I ran on the stairs so I wont have to talk to him. Im not mad at him, but I dont want to talk to him right now.

I close the door of my room and place my shoulder bag on the dresser. I change into my pajamas and lie down on the bed. I felt so tired and drained of energy.

Then my mind wonder to Yonghwa. Hes nice. Too bad I cant get to know him. I am going to be married to someone I dont know in two months. I sighed and close my eyes.
In a few minutes Im fast asleep.