Waiting for Jhoyz

eight

Its says 11am in my bedside clock when I opened my eyes. Im surprised but still a bit sleepy.

I got up, wash my face and brush my teeth but it seems my eyes are glued. I walk down the stairs eyes still half closed and I just hold to the bannister. I thought Im on the last step when I fall.

My eyes open and I shriek! Then someone hold my waist to keep me from falling.

" are you ok? " I heard Yonghwa asked and I was shaking a bit.
He went with me to the dining room.
I wonder what he is still doing at my house.

Mom give me a cup of chocolate and left me to go to my brother Brian.

I see a plate of pancakes and hotdog and I smiled. I ate right away not minding Yonghwa who keeps on looking at me and smiling.

" is it delicious?" He asked and I just raised my eyebrow at him and eat another pancake. " I' ll cook for you again tomorrow." He said and I cant help asking,

" you know how to cook?" He nod and I bit my lip so to prevent myself from asking again.

When I finished eating, Brians nanny took my plate and cleared the table. I went back to my room, ignoring Yonghwa who keeps on following me.

I take a quick shower and wear a shirt and stretch pants. Then I just sat down on the couch in my room and watch Brian play with his dog on the garden.

He s laughing and running, throwing something to his pet.
I didnt hear the door open and was startled when Yonghwa sat down beside me.

" Im sorry if I startle you. I keep knocking but you dont answer." He said.

I did my best to ignore him but he didnt leave me.

" Im sorry Jhoyz. " he said. " I will do anything to make you smile again. I hope you dont get mad at me for a long time..."

I sighed as I lean on the couch. I asked myself why Im mad at him and I know the answer.

I was thinking of him while I was away. He is the only one who make me smile but now he is also my fiance. I cannot reconcile the fact that they are one person. I dont want my fiance, he represent my sadness and frustration. Why does it have to be him? I felt tired and close my eyes. Thinking about everything gives me a headache.

I just hope he go away and leave me.

My parents left saying they need to go to town. Im stuck in the house with Yonghwa till they return.

I sat in the living room sofa watching a movie while he went up to the guest room.

He prepared dinner.
He got a plate of macaroni and cheese and ask me to eat with him.

I keep on blowing at the macaroni because its hot and my eyes are looking at the TV.

I take a spoonfull but its still hot and it burn my mouth. I almost spit it out but instead swallowed it burning my mouth and throat. He immediately give me a glass of water to drink.

" let me check that.." He said and gently place his finger on my lip to check the burn.

I closed my eyes when he touch the burn as I felt the sting.

Suddenly, i felt something change in the air. He is standing so close to me. When I opened my eyes I felt his lips brush mine and I close it again in surprise.

He kiss me gently taking care not to hurt the burn on my lip. I felt his tongue exploring my mouth and I gasp. Then I felt his hand is tugging at my hair while the other is caressing my back.

My knees turn to jelly and I lean on him.

His kisses always turn my
bones to water, I thought to myself.
Then I remembered it is my first kiss!
Why did I think about his kisses when
this is the first time he kiss me?
I got confused.

" I love you." He said and I stared at him.

He said it simply and I was shocked.
I look at my hands not able to say anything. Then the tears fell from my eyes. Did he think saying it will remove the hurt after they lied to me?

He hold me as I cried and he keeps saying sorry. I closed my eyes just leaning on to him.
" Im so tired.." I said and I sighed.
" just rest now love. You'll feel better after you rest." was his answer.

I must have fallen asleep and had a dream, because I just found myself
looking at Yonghwa and another girl dancing.

The girl is wearing a white dress that has silver lace on it. He whisper something to the girl and she lightly punch him on the shoulder. Then he laugh at something that the girl said.

I felt a little jealous as I see him smile at the girl.

The next thing I see he was running and calling my name. I look up at him and see a child going out to the street running after a ball.

Then theres a car that screetch and so much blood on the pavement.

" nooooo!" I was shouting and I felt him holding my face comforting me.

I opened my eyes and found that Im lying on the sofa and he was rubbing my arms to sooth me.

" wheres Brian?!" I asked him scared. " He almost got hit by that car.. he might be hurt!" I told him.

" you were having a dream..hes sleeping in his room.." He told me.

I look at him and I sigh in relief it look so real to me. Then without saying anything he carry me upstairs to my room and gently lay me on my bed.

He tuck the blanket around me and urge me to sleep.
Im afraid to close my eyes because of the blood in my dream. Without thinking, I hold on to his arm and whisper " please stay here.."

He take a deep breath then he nod at me and sat on the bed holding my hand. " ok now sleep ...I ll watch over you."