love at first sight?

my girl

*Charles*

She left. This time only with her keys, she didn't even take a jacket with her. I'm sure she's going to freeze, it's not very warm outside. I didn't go after her. I was too shocked by the words she just spoke. Charlotte ist pregnant? It's my baby? This can't be true. Yes, I saw her when Ivy and I weren't in contact but only by accident. I was drunk and she came to my apartment. We didn't sleep together though, or at least I thought that. I can't become a father. I'll lose Ivy. The look on her face and the coldness in her voice when she told me almost broke me. She was hurt and disappointed. I hate when I hurt her.

I stay on the couch a little longer and think about what to do next. Charlotte must be lying. I need to call someone, but who? My mom.

"Bonjour Charles, how are you?"

"Not good, maman. I don't know what to do"

"What's up, Charlie? Are you okay?"

"Charlotte came by when I was at training but Ivy was here and opened the door. Charlotte told her that she's pregnant, with my child", I burst out.

"Charlie! What! Did you cheat on Ivy? This lovely girl doesn't deserve that! That's not how I raised you", she starts scolding.

"No, maman. I didn't cheat on her. I saw Charlotte when Ivy and I weren't together and I was actually sure that nothing happened between us but I was pretty drunk. But this can't be true. It can't be my child", I start to panic again.

"Calm down, Charles. We'll figure out what to do. First you need to talk to Ivy, where is she?"

My heart aches again. I have no idea where she is. It's been an hour since she left. I'm starting to get worried. She's not in a good condition. When something happens to her I could never forgive myself that.

"I don't know, she left with the keys. I fucked up again, maman. I'm going to lose her again", I start crying silently.

"No, Charles. Stop saying that. Did you say anything to her that made her leave?"

"She asked if I saw Charlotte when we didn't talk and I didn't say anything. I couldn't admit it to her, she would feel betrayed maman"

"And she has every right for that, Charlie. But now you are going to search for her. Then you two will talk, be honest with her. Afterwards you call your lawyer and discuss what to do with him, alright?"

My mum always knows what to do and I'm very thankful for that. She's right though. Ivy has every right to feel betrayed. She thinks it was all just a fling. Shit. I fucked up so bad.

"Thanks maman, I'll talk to you later", I say before I hang up.

Next I call Ivy, she doesn't answer. I text her and ask where she is so that I can pick her up. No answer. Why would she answer though? She's hurt and mad. I get up and take a hoodie that's laying on our bed, she must've worn it earlier today. The thought of her wearing my hoodie because she misses me makes my tummy twist again. I really didn't have much time for her lately and I'm incredibly sorry for that. Shit. I'm so scared she's going to leave me. Think straight Charles. Search for her. Without thinking any longer I grab my phone and keys and run down the stairs to my car. Where could she be?

*Ivy*

It's been 1,5 hours since I came here. I'm still
sitting on the same bench drowning in my own thoughts. I have no idea where I am. It's a random bench near the sea, but I don't know how to get back to Charles' apartment. Our apartment. But I don't even know if I want to go back there. I'm thinking about calling Elena and telling her everything. She would tell me to leave him, I'm sure about that. I'm not ready to
leave him though. He's the love of my life. But he has a child. With another woman. He slept with her when we didn't talk. Did I mean anything to him at all or was I just a rebound? I can't take this anymore. Maybe I'm not meant to be happy. Every time I fall for someone it ends up in tears, hurt or injuries. I don't want that anymore.