love at first sight?

emotional chaos

*Ivy*

When I wake up I feel a shooting pain in my head. I shouldn't have drunk so much alcohol last night. Normally I don't really drink that much but I just couldn't handle my own thoughts anymore last night. Drinking alcohol stops me from thinking and drowning in my own thoughts. When I turn around I look into Charles' eyes. His beautiful green emerald eyes. My heart warms up when I see them. "Good morning, mon cœur", he says in a raspy voice and pulls me close r to him. "Good morning", I smile at him. However, there's still the thought of last night in my head. And the night it all started. The question if he really loves me. He confessed to me that he does last night and I wanted to believe him but there's still the thought that he could lie to me.

"What's on your mind, mon amour?", he asks concerned and brushes over my hair. I hesitate at first but then decide to tell him the truth. "I don't know if I can fully trust you anymore, Charles", I say. I see his face changing. The small smile that was on his lips a second ago is gone. He's hurt. I didn't mean to hurt him but I had to tell the truth.

"I know I lost your trust that night, Ivy. And it eats me up inside because I know that it changed something in our relationship. I'm so sorry I was stupid enough to leave you alone and I feel guilty since. Since that night there's a constant fear in me that you might leave me again and it breaks me because I don't know how to survive without you anymore. I know it's hard for you to believe me now, but I love you. I fucking love you, Ivy. More than anything or anyone else in this world. And it scares me because I've never felt like this for anyone. You're the reason I'm enjoying racing again. You saved me in one of my darkest times and you didn't even now. Remember the night we met? I was driving around at such a late time at night because I had to get rid of my thoughts. I was so stressed in this time because nothing seemed to work my way. The team and I weren't on good conditions and I had some issues with Charlotte because she didn't want to accept that we're not together anymore. But then I saw you, leaning against the wall and tears running down your face. I immediately knew that I had to stop because my heart told me to. I've never seen someone that beautiful. I even took the longest way to the hotel because I wanted to spend as much time as possible with you. And when I saw you walking up those stairs in my hoodie I knew that you're the one. I'm never nervous but I was nervous when I saw you walking into my garage with your dad because I knew I like you. I even told my mom about you that day. You were never a second option for me, Ivy. You were always the first one and I'm not planning on changing that any time soon because you're the woman I want to grow old with. I want to raise kids with you, our kids", Charles states.

I'm speechless. I'm at a loss of words. Tears are falling down my cheeks since he started telling me about the night we met and how he felt. How could I still be angry with him now? He's the sweetest person on earth. He looks at me scared. Waiting for an answer.

"I love you, Charles. And nothing will ever change anything about that", I sob after I found my voice again. He just fucking confessed his love to me again. He lets out a breath of
relieve and smiles at me. "So you're not leaving me?", he asks and embraces me into a hug while wiping away my tears. "No, I'm not leaving Charlie. Never", I say and smile. He returns the smile. "I'm so sorry, mon cœur", Charles whispers. "I know you are, Charles. Maybe you have a little more time for me at home to show me", I lay my head on his chest and start playing with his hair. "I promise, mon cœur. We have a whole week till race week begins. I still have to train a bit but I for sure have plenty of time for you. Maman asked if we want to come over for dinner tomorrow, Arthur and Lorenzo will be there too. You already met them and my mum loves you so I thought it would be okay", he says placing a kiss on my forehead. "Of course, that's okay. I love your family", I smile and chuckle.

His mum is the best and we kind of became friends in the last months. Even though I know his brothers a little better because they are almost always travelling with him as Arthur is racing himself in F2 and Lorenzo manages the two of them.