So if I said this book went to like 40 chapters how much would you guys love Me?
I actually don't know what I wrote,I'm in the middle of watching The Great Gatsby so spelling mistakes are a major sowy
[Warnings:A shit Ton of swearing (more than usual),a lot of feels and mentions of Abortion 😔]
Enjoy :)
"I think I'm going to collapse,"Louis whispered to himself,one hand grabbing onto the railing of the stairs tightly,his eyes clenched shut and his other very small,feminine hand on his flat stomach.If he moved his hand upwards he would be able to feel his ribs through the jumper he was wearing.He was crucially underweight,and now that he was probably,most likely, pregnant,he was going to have to take tablets and foods that would help him gain weight,which knowing Louis' body will reject them and throw them back up the minute that they landed in his stomach.Louis' body was so use to throwing up that it did it automatically at times,yes,Louis would eat some pieces of food but that was only when he really was hungry,but other than that he ate nothing and was fine without food.He was told at age 14 that he was diagnosed with both Bulimia and Anorexia,and since then he had to take medication that tried to prevent him from throwing up but he never took them.
Louis was scared to gain weight
He already thought that he was fat
He wasn't looking forward to gaining baby weight at all
"Babe,are you okay?"Liam whispered,taking small,slow steps towards Louis who was half way up the stairs,staying nerve wracking still in his position.Louis wanted to scream.he wanted to shoot at the top of his lungs and tell everyone how he was actually feeling,tell them all the truth of how he wants to throw himself off of a fucking Clift and end his life.He wanted to scream at Liam and tell the younger boy how much he fucking broke and hurt him,how he can't sleep at night because he is attacked by nightmares of the beatings and the rape,he wants to show everyone the scars and bruises that litter his beautiful tan body.He wishes that some scientist can get inside of his head and show the world how Liam James Payne of One Direction actually is,how he isn't all nice and sweet like he is to the world.He wants everyone to know what happens behind closed doors.
"You're Pregnant?That's bullshit,dudes can't get pregnant..."Harry spoke up when he noticed that Louis wasn't going to speak.Liam himself had stopped his movements at Louis' eerie way of being quite and not moving.All four boys knew that Louis was coming home since Jay had texted Harry when the Doncaster lad left the house that late morning,she knew about everything going on with Louis and Liam and wanted Harry to keep Liam away from her son.Of course Harry didn't listen and gathered them ALL in the apartment,keeping Liam out of view.All three of them knew how much Liam was working on being a better person,to go back to his old ways.the medication was helping and as long as Liam took the daily amount each and every day,he would be normal.Zayn still wasn't trusting Liam,he didn't see how he could after knowing all of the things that Louis had to go through.
"Guys actually can get pregnant Harry.It's rare,and very unusual but it is possible,"Niall informed everyone,the same dumbfounded look on his face that everyone around him had.No one expected the outburst that Louis came out with,Hell,Niall didn't even want Louis to go to Therapy and was surprised that Zayn was making the eldest go.It was only for a week,but that wasn't a way to spend New Years,and Niall missed Louis a lot when he disappeared off the face of the earth.Pregnancy wasn't something that anyone expected to escape Louis' mouth.It was something that everyone in science class had learned about in secondary school,about how rare it was and about the death rate that came along with male pregnancy.There were only two ways that a male could get pregnant,one of those ways were being experimented on,and the other was by genetic,which was how Louis was able to get pregnant.It was in Louis' blood,it being passed down by his mother.
Louis didn't want anyone to find out his secret,it was embarrassing,and he was scared to be labeled a freak and have everything that he ever had gained taking away from him in a flash and be left without anything.
He was going to lose his best friends
His career
His life
"I think we should step out for a minute,"Zayn whispered,unsure if they should or not but knowing that Liam and Louis did need their own personal time,to discuss and think over things.Zayn,Niall and Harty all left hesitatingly,staying out in the hallway outside of the front door of Louis and Liams apartment because Zayn still didn't trust Liam.Liam took in a breath he didn't know he was holding when the other boys left,looking at Louis from where he was standing on the stair with his back to the Wolverhampton lad.
"Louis,babe,I think you should come and sit in the livingroom with me.I'll brew you some tea,and we can talk about this,thing in your stomach..."Liam couldn't help but cringe when he spoke.He didn't know how to react with this news of Louis being possibly pregnant.Was he suppose to be over joyed with happiness?Angry because of the way that it was created?Sad since he didn't know if he wanted this baby or not?It wasn't as if he disliked children,he liked them and all but he didn't want children until,he was atleast 25 and knew that the band was over and done with,not at the age of 21 in the height of his career.He wanted to have a family with Louis,dreamed to have that son and daughter with Louis' eyes and his nose,or hair.He could picture no other future without Louis and with the way that Liam had fucked thing up over and over again.
"Thing?Did you just call my baby a thing?!It is not a thing Liam ,it's a baby,a baby that you fücking reproduced because you're a fücked up human being that has beaten,broken and bruised me so many times!Don't you stand there and call something that you made a thing!"Louis finally Shouted,now standing on the bottom step of the stairs,blue eyes staring at Liam with fury and distraught through the glass of his glasses he was wearing.
"Look,"Liam took a breath to calm himself down,sure the medication helped his out bursts but that still didn't mean that he didn't get angry.He has been angry so many times since Louis left,he had broken mirrors and furniture with anger at himself,then he calmed himself down and now Louis was giving him a reason to get angry."You disappeared for 3 fücking weeks Louis,you left without telling us Anything.I tracked you down because I was scared that you were hurt,you ignored my pleas and then you show up out of nowhere and tell me your pregnant?How should I fücking react?Tell me Louis!"Liam shouted,not moving from where he was standing just 5 week away from Louis who was crying silently.
"You fücking räped me Liam.You took everything away from me and destroyed me piece by piece.I am standing here,right now,with a human growing inside of me,because of you.I can't even look after myself yet alone another life!"
"Well you won't have to look after another Human when you abort what's inside of you,it's disgusting,"Liam growled eying Louis' flat stomach and then to Louis whose look was ready to kill,tears still leaking out of his pretty eyes."We aren't keeping it,"Liam added,not caring what he was saying,He didn't want the baby and would rather Louis abort it so that he and Louis could attempt to start over again.Not that Louis would agree on starting over.He would rather stab himself.
"I am not aborting my child.I will not kill another human being.You come anywhere near me or my baby I will stab you with my own cheekbones you heartless Bastard."He threatened thrown chocked sobs,taking a look at Liam before stomping up the stairs of the apartment,his satchel hitting off his backside as he moved and wiped the tears furiously out of his face.Carefully he collapsed onto his bed,curling himself into a ball under the blankets and cried harder.
"I will never let anything happen to you darling,I swear my life on it,"
I actually cried myself writing this chapter and I am so so so so sorry
I want to stab myself now
SO I have this idea to do in the next chapter and I really hope that some of you will like it and find it interesting ☺️ message me if you want to find out what it is,otherwise it's gonna be a surprise!!!
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