Tubbo's pov:
I lay there.No one came in my room but i didn't want them to.I didn't need them to break down at the sight of me.I could sense their presence in the waiting room as well as hearing their silence.I'm definitely going to be sent to a facility.I went to one once for 2 weeks and i just ended up finding new ways to hurt myself.The doctors immediately saw and sent me back home but with those new ways i've adapted my addiction.My parents did nothing but manipulate and mentally abuse me so i wasn't expecting them to be here.A doctor came in
Doctor:Toby this is your 4th time here and for the same reason why didn't you get help the first time
Tubbo:i didn't want it
Doctor:and the second time?
Tubbo:my friend Tommy helped me
Doctor:the third time?
Tubbo:again i didn't want it
Doctor:and how about this time?
Tubbo:i thought i could handle it i guess i couldn't
Doctor:well unless you get help we have to send you to a psychiatric Hospital for your safety
Tubbo:i learned bad stuff from people there they helped my self harm addiction grow so i wouldn't do that if i were you or else i might end up dead by the time i come out
Doctor:do you have someone who can help you then
Phil:yes he does i have a therapist he could go to and if that doesn't work then me and my family will help him or vice versa
Doctor:okay then try it out with your family first then go into therapy if it doesn't work.but i will need to prescribe medication for Toby here
Tubbo:No i refuse to take any pills
Doctor:well you have no choice kid i'm sorry but i'm just doing my job
Phil:what medication
Doctor:Prozac which is an anxiety medication but it also treats depression and can help sleep patterns take it every evening after dinner
Phil:thank you
Doctor:i'll go get those now for you two
He leaves.I sigh as i lay on my other side,facing away from Phil.
Phil:Mate i'm here to help,everyone is but you need to let us help you first
Tubbo:No
I deadpanned.I want to die this is the only way i can.
Phil:Whether you like it or not we're gonna help you get through this every step of the way and we're not giving up on you
Tubbo:i've given up on myself so it doesn't matter if you haven't yet
Phil:We're here for you,so are your fans.We love you Tubbo
Tubbo:can you just leave i don't need this right now
He sighs but the doctor comes back in.He hands Phil Medication and a form that he signs and they take the iv out of my arm.My arm is wrapped in bandages with medical tape over it.They let me go with Phil and we walked back into the waiting room.Everyone stood up and we walked to the car in silence.I was sitting in the back with Y/n and Tommy.Tommy didn't even look at me but Y/n was staring at me the whole way home.Once we got back to the house i went straight upstairs to my room.I didn't want confrontation right now i just wanted to sleep.I was exhausted.I locked my door and went to lay down
Phil:Tubbo bud i want your door unlocked please
Tubbo:why i'm just gonna sleep
Phil:So when you get urges we can get to you right away
Tubbo:ugh fine
I sighed before unlocking the door and opening it to see Phil smiling
Phil:thank you Tubbo
Tubbo:do you want me to keep the door open too while i'm at it
Phil:no i'm just trying to make sure your safe
Tubbo:whatever i'll be sleeping
I shut my door before i could hear another word from him and laid down closing my eyes and eventually falling asleep
Tommy's pov:
I sat on the couch staring into nothingness.i didn't respond to anything.Maybe i was being a little harsh on the others by not responding or simply ignoring them but i'm sure they understand where i'm coming from.
Phil:he just went to sleep his door is unlocked
Wilbur:Good we wouldn't want anything to happen
Y/n:it's late guys maybe we should go to bed
I shook my head No.
Phil:Tommy you good mate?
I shook my head No again.I didn't give physical words.I'm afraid i'll screw up with my words just like in the hospital
Wilbur:Tommy whatever is on your mind you can tell us
I once again shook my head No.They made sure i had food and water prepared if i got hungry before going to bed themselves.I walked upstairs and sat in front of Tubbo's door.My back against the opposite wall looking straight at the bee sticker that he had put on there.
Tommy:you don't hate me Tubbo i know it
My voice hurt from not speaking for a while.I sat there and sat there and sat there.I watched sunrise at 5:00am and i watched the rain come at noon.He still hasn't came out of his room so i never left.The others had came down at around 1:00pm and saw me.I didn't care i was going to wait for Tubbo to get out of his room.
Y/n:Tommy he'll be alright
Tommy:i don't know that until i see him
Y/n:Do you want me to check on him for you?
Tommy:yes please i want to know he's okay
They walk in and i go back to staring.
Y/n's pov:
I go into Tubbo's room carefully because he still might be sleeping
Tubbo:i need it i need it i need it i need it
He was scratching his arms and pulling his hair.I sit down on the bed and pull his hands away.He looked up at me with tearful eyes
Y/n:Its okay Tubbo
Tubbo:i can't function without it i need some sort of pain to help me
Y/n:No you don't.You have me and Phil and Wilbur and Tommy
Tubbo:Don't say his name please
Y/n:okay i won't but you don't need pain
Tubbo:i do it helps me
Y/n:it makes your addiction worse
Tubbo:it helps me lots
Y/n:it doesn't help if your in the hospital because of it
Tubbo:I need it
Y/n:No you don't
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