The Mission

Fourteen

"I want to stab her," I said

"Izzy I cant let you do this," Jane said

"Ive already made my decision, Im doing this if you want me to or not," I said.

"Izzy youll never forgive yourself for killing someone. Youll be traumatized. It wont help by killing her," Jane said.

"Dont you think Im not already traumatized  by Becca and her actions towards me? Being verbally abused for the past 6 months? I cant do this anymore. I need this, I need to do this, I want revenge. I want her in pain. I want closure Let me do this," I said.

"This isnt going to bring you closure. It wont heal you," She said

"Jane please let me do this," I said.

"You arent going to take no for an answer are you?" She asked.

"Correct, I will be doing this even if youd like me to or not,"

She stayed quiet for a long time. "Fine" she said, clearly not pleased with me. I could see it in her face.

"So, whats your plan?" Felix asked aftet a minute of silence.

"Ill talk to her at school and lure her over here, then I will do the deed," I said.

"How are you going to lure her here" Felix asked.

"I dont know. I dont know, maybe I can steal some sedatives from work and I can drug her. I cant.... She will fight, it will be an easier job if she is sedated, at least at first. I can have more fun with her."

"Izzy thats too much. I cant let you do that," Jane said.

"We can provide the sedation," Felix said.

"You arent helping," Jane said, clear she was distraught with this plan.

"I have more ideas," Felix said.

"Jane why dont we leave the room, let Izzy handle this. She isnt going to back down no matter what you say or do" Alec said putting his arm around Jane leading, well more forceful taking her out of the room.

"Yoi dony have to kill her you know. You could torture her before we turn her into a pet," Felix said.

"Do I want to know what a pet is?" I asked.

"A toy, a slave, we can do whatever we want with her. Its fun for us really," Felix said.

Demetri cleared his throat

"What?" felix asked.

"I dont think she needs to know that in depth," Demetri said.

"I mean, she is now included in the vampire life. She should know, especially what to expect to see when we get back to the castle," he said. 

Demetri thought about it for a moment but nodded. "True," he said.

I heard a male's groan from a different room. Alec, he doesnt seem to be pleased with this conversation. Jane probably wasnt either.

"Felix is right, I do need to know so I am prepared on what it is like back in Italy," I said.

Demetri and Felix nodded. "Very true," he sighs.

There was a smash from the other room.

"Gimmie a sec," I said holding a finger to the two of them. I headed to the kitchen where Jane and Alec were.

"Come outside with me," I took Jane's hand. I dont want to know what a vampire that loses their temper looks like.

I took her hand and led her outside then I waited for her to go at it.

"Izzy you cant do this. Youre not trained for this scenario. Dont let your emotions get to you, you will regret this immediately. You dont need that burdon of killing someone. You will regret this for years. I know you hate her but this isnt the answer," she said.

I stayed quiet to see if she was done. And she was.

"I want this, Im not as innocent as you think. Ive been through so much not much phases... well let me rephrase. Physical things dont phase me. Im tired of this abuse, Im tired of it. I want to do this. And if it looks like it becomes too much for me. I will let you stop me. But I need this. I know that torturing her doesnt seem like closure but I need this all to come to an end. And this is the way. Then I can have a new beginning. I wont have to worry about the harassment, the abuse. I will be able to have a new life. I new life with you where everything can be perfect and I wont have to worry about anything," I took both of her hands pulling her close.

She opened her mouth to say something but I cut her off, pressing my lips against hers.

She put her arms around me, her body relaxed. I pulled away from her and looked down her her beautiful red eyes. I never noticed her eyes were red until this moment. It must he a vampire thing.

"Better?" I asked

"No," she sighs looking up at me defeated.

"Trust me Jane. Ill be fine. If it looks like its too much for me, you can stop me, got it?"

She rested her head on my chest listening to me breathe. "Yes Izzy," she said. She was clearly upset and I had no true way of comforting her as the only way to was to not do this but I had to. I have to.

"Why dont you go eat or something, destress, take a bath. I have lots of bathbombs and bubble bars in my room. Just relax okay?" I said.

"Okay," she whispered avoiding eye contact.

I sighed and I moved away from her. "Dont listen if it bothers you," I said looking at Alec for assistance with that situation.

"Lets go hunt Jane," Alec said taking her arm gently leading her away.

I headed back into the living room with Demetri and Felix.

"So what is your plan?" Felix said.

I took a deep breath and spit out my plan.