A Forever Type Of Deal

Family grief

Chapter 18
Heera's pov

When we got in ,I looked around and the inside was just as beautiful as the outside and I was in awe.
Despite how big the house was,it was homey and I absolutely loved it
I looked around as Rachel went to finish preparing dinner...
We had spent the better part of the day just getting to know each other and I had known alot about them
They were a lovely family and at some point it made sad I could never be happy like them but what we don't know is everyone is battling their own demons whilst still trying to be happy but it was later when I learned that what you see is not what you get.
There were family portraits on the wall from when Miles was a lil boy but there was another girl in the pictures and I was yet to meet her.
I was curious about who she was but I didn't ask ,incase I was overstepping.
Miles had gone off with his dad as they needed to work on something and Rachel insisted I look around instead of helping her in the kitchen as I had requested .
"Dinner is ready," I heard her yell from the kitchen so I followed to find a beautiful kitchen with black marble counters and island.
I could definitely live here everyday.
It made cooking even the easiest of meals looking like you cooking in a high end restaurant.
"Can I help?"
"Could you set the table for me and then go get my boys from the office, I swear they don't know when to stop working."she scolded lightly but I could see the fierce love she had for both of her boys and again I felt a pang in my chest since I'd never be able to experience that.
I went and called them after setting the table to find them already coming down so I waited and we walked into the dinning room together with Miles holding my hand.
Rachel had prepared home made pasta and it smells and looks delicious.
Definite better than the take out I order when I'm too lazy to cook.
"Dig in everyone,I hope you enjoy."
We said the grace and soon everyone was eating and it was really good.
"So Heera what do your parents do for a living."I heard Ryan ask and I froze for a second.
I didn't know if I should lie or tell the truth.
I'm not sure how Miles would take it and I really didn't want to lie to him
"Uuum my mamma passed away when I was 15 and my dad works in a different country ." I answered quietly as memories of my used to be family ran through my mind.
"I'm sorry sweetheart,I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable,"Ryan continued.
"Its okay,you didn't know."
I felt Miles take my hand from under the table and intertwined out fingers ,silently telling me he's there for me.
"If you don't mind me asking,who do you stay with now that your dad works out of the country." Rachel continued the conversation.
I stay alone most of the time unless he comes back to visit once in a while.
"Oh darling I'm sorry,your so young to be living that life."
I'm honestly used to it
Its been 3 years of living alone and I got used to it though I must admit it gets lonely sometimes.
I smiled softly at her,I really didn't feel like talking much about my life.
There was nothing interesting going on in it anyway.
"We know how losing someone feels like,so if you ever want somewhere or someone always know our door is always open." She continued.
When she said that I felt Miles become rigid next to me
It was my turn to squeeze his hand
Seemed like he needed me too at this point.
I noticed how all of them had a look of sadness in their eyes.
They looked broken and my heart broke for them
"Our daughter died last year,,,it's been quite the challenge to try and live without her.
It feels so wrong to be happy when she's gone.
We moved here in hopes of getting better with dealing with her death.
It hasn't been easy but I thank God we had each other.
I don't know what I would do without them
She was out surfing because she really enjoyed it and even competed in the tournament just for the fun of it,one day the waves were too strong she was unable to ride them and ended up drowning...by the time the life guards caught up with her it was too late,, we lost our baby girl and apart of ourselves that day.
It hurt so bad the first few months.
It was hard on all of us,she was our little girl. A real life spitfire.
She had so much she wanted to do but life had other plans.
There's not a day that goes by without us missing her and wishing she was here with us ."she finished in tears and my heart entirely went out to this little family.
They seemed so happy when in reality they were all broken from losing their daughter.
I could understand what they were going through
It was so hard when mamma left.
I couldn't sleep for months.
Anxiety was a bitch and couldn't really do anything without breaking down and wishing she was here to hold me.
I turned and saw Miles' had a blank expression on and I knew the walls were going back up
I could tell this was not something they liked talking about .
He abruptly stood and stormed off and I knew he needed time but I couldn't let him be alone at such a time.
I went and hugged Rachel and excused
myself to go check on him.
I found him sitted on the stairs looking so broken .
I quickly went to him and wrapped my hands around him
He just broke down when I held him against me.
My heart broke for this strong guy who was dealing with the worst type of pain yet still managed to always be there for me
I hope he knows how much he means to me and I'm never letting him handle this alone.
He held me tightly to him and I wouldn't have it any other way
I'll always be here for him
Always till forever.