Adore or Love, My Dear?

(OLD)Note 5, Thoughts for everything

Author's note: I got to listen to music again! So, hopefully, this is better! Also, there isn't that much cussing in here!
Warning: Mentions of homophobia and child ab^se

Okay. I think I'm crazy. Officially. I'm crazy. 15 years old, and I'm already thinking of scenarios. I mean, the scenarios aren't bad. I mean, why would they be?

I just can't seem to get Error out of my head. I wish I could kiss him. I wish so many things, like holding his hand. Sure, it sounds a little cheesy, but that's what I feel like.

But, he could never like or love a guy like me. I'm ugly. I'm...gay. Yep, gay. I know that's there is nothing wrong with that, but say that to Deity's. If I'm with a guy, I'm done. Killed, dead, done for.

Stupid laws! Even more of stupid Deity's! They're so fucking dumb. I just should've killed them when I was still in Mythia. Why do Deity's have to do this to me? Actually, other people who are gay, lesbian, trans, etc, why do they have to do that to them?

I'll tell you why. Deity's don't listen to a single shitty word that comes out from our fucking mouth. They seem like they do, but they never listen to our prayers. They never listen to us. They watch us suffer, watch us cry, watch us having hard times, kill ourselves, hurt ourselves, but they act like they will care about everything. They're also homophobic bitches.

Shitty fucking assholes they are. How they're lying bitches...
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Every day I would go over to Error's house to study, actually thinking of running away from home. My parents would kill me...and every day that I would go over to his house, they were furious with me.

Sometimes, my dad would get cuts on me and bruises. When I walked over to Error's house one day, I was 15, as I mentioned earlier. I walked into his house, finding him reading a book that wasn't dark magic. Before I could ask what it was, he looked at me and frowned. "Adelram... you need to stop coming over here if that's what your parents are going to do to you!" He said. "It's fine. I'm fine!" I said reassuringly.

Error, of course, didn't believe me and disinfected the cuts I had. "You don't have to do this." I said, a little of a whisper. Error shook his head as he continued to disinfect the cuts. "No. I don't like seeing you hurt like this Error. You should just run away from your parents if they keep doing this to you! I don't want you to get to the point where you'll get killed. I mean, hopefully you won't..." He looked up at me. "I care about you, Adelram...I don't want anything bad to happen to you." I blushed and looked away from him. It was silent as he continued to clean the cuts. 

When he was done, I thanked him quietly. He nodded, and I decided to ask him about the book he was reading. "Oh..." Error picked it up. "Just...trying to read about the Deity's...I think I might know how to try to defeat them...but it will take it some time." He explained. I looked at the book cover, seeing it said, "Deity's of Mythia". "Is this recent?" I asked. "I don't really know. I just saw this in my parents bedroom, all I knew that they worshipped the Deity's like crazy. I guess they wanted to learn more about them." Error explained. 

I looked at him. "Your parents are crazy." I half joked. Error shrugged. "Maybe they were, but at least they had this. Now," he handed me a dark magic book. "Make yourself useful!" He joked. I chuckled. "Okay!" Instead of being in the living room, I was in the dining room where there was a small round table. I sat there, reading, and Error was in the living room before asking, "Why aren't you in here?" He asked, sounding like a little kid. I had to admit, that was a little cute of how he asked. "I thought going somewhere else was good." I said walking over to him. I stood right by him, as he looked at me. "Where did you want me to go for a different area? Your room?" I joked, which caused Error to turn red a little. "Oh, that's a yes then?" I teased. "Hell no." Error mumbled.