Adore or Love, My Dear?

(OLD)Note 7, Question after Questions

A/N: Um, in the last probably 3 chapters(including this one), Adelram and Error are still 15 years old. Also, HAPPY PRIDE MONTH! 🌈🏳️‍🌈🌈
Warning: Cussing(like always)

Fechin was flying around as I was
getting ready for school, which they didn't help. "Are you trying to annoy me, or is this what you do with Error too?" I asked them. Fechin landed on my shoulder and looked at me.

I sighed. "I'll take that as an unknown answer..." I mumbled. I headed over to the bathroom, seeing my eyes, still gray. I stopped researching dark magic for a while, but my eye color now... I wanted to see what was going on with me. I also looked ugly. 'Stop that...' I thought to my brain. I knew my brain was telling me that to only bring me down. But, I never learned to stop listening to something or someone when they say something horrible to me. I was used to it, though.

I headed to the dining room, Fechin still on my shoulder as I searched for a quick breakfast. Nothing seemed like I would eat it in time. 'I'll skip breakfast again. It won't hurt.' I thought. I've skipped breakfast for the past year, feeling fine. Sure, sometimes my stomach would hurt from not eating anything, but I ignored it.

I didn't have time, so I might as well not be late or anything. When I got to the front door, Fechin got on my backpack, and it seemed like they wanted to go to school with me. "You can't go with me." I said, getting off my backpack. Fechin did a sad crow and seemed upset. I smiled a little.

"I'll be back." I said reassuringly to Fechin. "I promise. I'll tell Error too that you said hi." With that, I headed out the front door to the bus stop, which I barely made it. It's not my fault! Okay... maybe it was of how slow I was that morning. When I sat next to Error, I noticed Lithia was right across from him, talking to him before I sat down. She gave me a disgusted look and turned away.

I looked at Error, confused, which he only sighed. "Don't ask." He said, sounding upset. I didn't as I just wondered what had happened. Why was Error and Lithia talking to each other?

It was very silent-an awkward silence as I looked down and started to fidget with my hands. Error finally decided to break the awful silence. "So...how is it with Fechin?" I smiled a little. "Good, except they're annoying." I said, a little annoyed.

Error chuckled. "Welcome to my world!" He said, but then frowned. "It seems like they don't like to be left alone. I understand that." I put a reassuring hand on Error's shoulder, which he seemed a little surprised, and looked at me. I smiled at him, and that seemed to work.

I guess that after Error's parents just randomly disappeared, he feels the same for Fechin whenever they don't want to be by themselves. I got my hand off of his shoulder, wishing that I could've held his hand.

'Pull yourself together, Adelram!' I thought to myself. 'He dosen't like you. He only likes you as a stupid friend... nothing more.' That's what I kept telling myself. It was true...or at least what half of myself said.

The other half told me maybe that he does like me, but it just seemed like I was going back and forth on all of this. Maybe I was just lovesick or something. Maybe I just want someone to tell me, "Hey! I care about you and love you!" Or maybe I really do like Error. "Bullshit..." I mumbled to myself. I'm just crazy.
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The bus is probably the 2nd or 3rd worst hell to me. It's always so loud, people yelling at each other, laughing loudly, and making jokes that I don't even understand.

You just feel like you're there suffocated by all of the loudness and words that people say. Not to mention the crazy shit that they do. Why do Deity's hate me when they should hate those people? Do they keep an eye on me the most?