Sleeping With The Enemy - Simon's POV (TWD Simon fanfic)

Trapped

I woke up with my girl in my arms. It felt good to be able to call her that. Then the memories of yesterday came back to me. I felt sick with nerves. I had a horrible feeling about today. I held her closer. She nuzzled into my neck, letting me know she was awake too. I began running my fingers through her hair and her wandering hands found my side.

"I could get used to waking up next to you" I whispered kissing her forehead. Giving her a glimpse of my soft side. 
"Me too" she replied smiling and I smiled back
"Its gonna be okay today" I tried to reassure her, she rolled onto her back looking up at me, and I instantly regretted mentioning it.
"Will it?" she asked
"They'll deliver" I said confidently, I knew she was their best runner but she used to go with Craig and I doubted her would disappoint.
"And if they don't" she asked scared for my reply.
"That's out of my hands now" I sighed, secretly glad that it would be Negan making that decision not me.

We reluctantly left the comfort of my bed, Y/N leaving before anyone saw her in my room.

I showered and got ready, unable to shift the uneasy feeling in my stomach at what the day could hold.

I met Negan at the front gates, he was dressed in full character. 

"Good morning Simon" he grinned "What a beautiful day to raise some hell" he seemed hopeful that Hilltop would disappoint so that he had an excuse to play.

"It is that" I forced a smile, before he had chance to reply we both noticed Y/N heading over, she looked beautiful, she always did, but those cowboy boots were new and I liked those very much. I imagined her wearing only them...but was quickly pulled from my daydream.

"Here she is" Negan hollered, swinging Lucille over his shoulder. "Come on Honey you can ride with me", she glanced at me and I tried to hide my disappointment that she would be spending a couple of hours in a truck with Negan rather than me, but she knew me better than that and the glint in her eye confirmed it. 

I climbed in beside Heather,

"She wont cause any trouble" she reassured, as if reading my mind.

"I wasn't..." I stuttered attempting to deny worrying about Y/N, but the knowing look Heather gave me, made me give up before I started.

"I hope not" I sighed

"You think she's giving him shit in their?" Heather asked, gesturing towards Negan's truck,

"she better be" I smirked and we both laughed. I knew she would have some smart ass remark for anything he threw at her. 

"Do me a favour today" I said to Heather, confident now that I could trust her and knowing she had Y/N best interests at heart. 

"Go on?" she asked, tilting her head in curiosity,

"Make sure her friends know that yesterday wasn't her fault and that if she stepped out of line we had threatened to take it out on them" I asked, Heather seemed surprised but nodded. 

We didn't speak the rest of the journey.

When you eventually arrived at Hilltop, I climebed out of the truck and caught Y/N's eye. I nodded at her, trying to give her some comfort, but she looked terrified and Negan was glued to her side. I saw her glance at Jess in the crowd but she wouldn't even look at her.  I hoped Heather would get chance to speak to her. As much as I had considerd the benefits to me if they never forgave her, after her outburst on the roof last night, I knew her loyalty was with me regardless. She needed her friends.  

Gregory came running out of his mansion to greet Negan.

"Negan what a surprise" he replied, smile quivering in fear,