In a dark room,
A girl was crying and crying. But no one could hear her because she herself covered her mouth with pillow. So that her crying sound doesn't go outside. She is Ragini.
R : kyun kyun 😭 kyun mere sath humesha yehi hota hai. Jab bhi lagta hai khusiya aane wali hai tabhi kuch na kuch aisa hota hai ki sab phir se bikhar nata hai. 😭😭 Kya gunah kiya tha maine? Pyar hi to kiya tha Ritz se. 😭 . Tujhe mera pyar kabhi nahi dikha kya? 😭Han shayad mere pyar mein hi kami thi. Mujhmein hi kami hai sayad. Isliye toh aaj tak pyar ke liye tadap rahi hu. Bachpan se Mumma , Papa ke pyar ke liye, abhi tere pyar ke liye Ritz. Mere friends bhi bas matlab ke liye sath the. Wo log bhi chor ke chale gaye. College mein tu mila. Ab shayad tu bhi chor ke chala jayega. 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 Bas , ab aur nahi. Main thak gayi hu. 😭 Mujhse aur nahi hota. Nahi chahiye mujhe kisika pyar. Main bas apne aap se pyar karti hu. Main hi hu mere liye bas. Aur koi nahi chahiye mujhe aur koi nahi.. 😭😭 iska matlab yeh nahi ki main kisise nafrat kart hu . Main kisise nafrat nahi karti. Main bas apne aapko kisike life mein thopna nahin chahti.
Saying this she get up from the bed and washed her face to look presentable and got down for dinner.
Next day in college,
RS : oye Ragu!
R : han
They are walking and talking
RS : are tu kahan chali gayi thi kal?
R : college ke baad main kaha jati hu? 🙄
RS : ghar . Thik hai. Puch liya aise hi, kal tu after college tapri pe dikhi nahi isliye..
R snapped : nahi dikhi main waha. Toh kya ho gya? Dikha nahi mere iss semester ka result? Abhi mujhe bas padhai pe focus karna hai. Faltu ke cheeso mein nahi. Bohot waqt barbad kar liya.
RS : hein? Kya bol rahi hai tu?
R : kuch nahi. Tujhe koi kam nahi hai? Tera gf nahi ayi ?
RS : tujhe kaise pata? Uska toh second half se class start ho raha hai.
R : tu bhul raha hai Riddhima bhi tere gf k class mein padhti hai.
RS : oh yeah.
R : waise ek baat puchu? Tu toh Ridz ke peeche tha na to aab ye Sanvi (Ritwik's gf)? I mean achanak se.
RS : achanak se kuch nahi hua. Hum social media pe baat karte the pahele se hi. Usko mujhpe crush tha. Phir dheere dheere baat hote hote usne ekdin propose kiya.. aur Ridz are wo to mujhe bhao hi nahi deti thi. Hum to bas masti karte the.
R : acha.
A lone tear escaped from her eyes thinking whenever Ritwik , she and Ridhima went anywhere together, how she felt alone , she felt kabab mein haddi. They were so engrossed with each other they used to forgot her. She thought they are a thing. And that hurted her. She was backing off thinking her cousin. Anyway hum jo sochte hai wahi humesha sahi ho aisa hota nahi hai.
RS : tu ro rahi hai?
R : pagal. Main kyun roungi. Chal class ka waqt ho gaya.
They went to classroom. She prefferd to sit with Ananya instead of Ritwik. And as usual it did not affect Ritwik. Seeing this her heart ached. Because they used to sit together from 1st semester. And they used to lterraly fight with everyone to sit along with each other. But since Ritwik got to know her feeling he started distancing a little thinking if she grows her feeling more it will affect her. He thought she should make other friends too rather than only Ritwik and Ananya. He sometimes sat with Ananya so Ragini has to sit with others. But he did not know his this gesture was breaking her.
After their class Ragini went home directly.
Like this their last year of college completed. In this one year she made two more friends Raghav and Nandini and she was successfully distanced herself from Ritwik. Like they spoke less.
At last day of exam,
Ragini was emotional, angry and what not but controlling her emotions (In this one year she learned to control her emotions, no one could predict seeing her what is in her mind). Because, her masi came and talked about her marriage. She did not want to marry.
At college after exam,
Ritwik, Nandini and Ragini were sitting and discussing how the exam went. Ragini was lost somewhere. Ritwik and Nandini noticed it.
RS : oye Ragu kaisa tha exam ? Tera toh acha hi hoga. Tere sare suggestions jo mil gaye.
R : hmm acha hi tha. Waise bhi kya hi farak padta hai.
RS : matlab ?
R : kuch nahi. Tu aaj inha?
RS : kyun main nahi baith sakta inha?
R : nahi matlab tu baithta nahi na aaj kal himare sath
RS : aisa kuch nahi hai.
R : tu mane ya na mane yehi sach hai. Chor waise bhi aaj akhri exam hai. Iske baad kaab milenge nahi pata.
N : are tumlog ye sab choro chalo kuch khate hai.
R : tu ja Nandu. Main paani bharke ati hu.
R in mind : bas aaj ka din. Phir koi takleef nahi hogi Ragini. Aaj ke baad na koi Ritwik na koi Sanvi honge teri life mein.
She thought and smiled sadly. After sometime she went to her all friends. Ananya tried to be support of her in these days. She was equally shocked to know Ritwik's relationship. She thought, Ritwik likes Ridhima.
AK : toh Ragini age kya plan hai?
R : apne aapko tume dena hai kuch din bas. Tu toh janti hai maine in teen saalon mein apne aapko time hi nahi diya. Bas time waste kiya.
AK : beeti baatein bhul ja. Sab acha hoga. Tu itni pyari hai na dekhna tere sath sab pyara oyara cheeze honge aab.
R : huh. Bhul toh nahi sakti Annie. But han baki sabhi baaton ki tarha yeh baat bhi kahi na kahi dab jayegi mere andar. Tu chinta mat kar. Main thik hu.
They enjoyed their last day in college. They cut cakes, took photographs, made memories for the last time in college. Now its time for the final goodbye. Almost everyone left. Only Ritwik, Ananya, Nandini, Raghav and Ragini were there. Among these friends everyone knew Ragini's feelings towards Ritwik. but no one talked about it with her knowing she will not be comfortable.
R : so I guess humhe bhi chalna chahiye.
RS : itni jaldi?
R : jaldi?
RS : nahi matlab aisa kag raha hai na itni jaldi sab khatam ho gaya.
R : nah, mujhe lagta hai agar thoda pahele khatam ho jata toh acha hota.
There standing all 5 knows in which context they are talking. They definitely were not talking about tga last day of college.
R in cracked voice : so bye guys. Tum logo ko toh job mil gayi. Mujhe preparation karni hai so main chalti hu.
RS : nahi chal na kuch khate hai pahele.
N understanding Ragini's situation : Ritz aaj nahi.
RS getting irritated : kab hoga phir ? Main toh Bangalore nikal raha hu na ek haafte mein. Tum log jante hue bhi..
This was a news for Ragini and seeing others she realised only she didn't know this. She was feeling left out and just wanted to run away from there. But she was controlling.
Raghav (Ra) : nahi dude! Hum milenge pakka. Abhi bhi 7 din hai na.
R : are tum log jao na. Mujhe choro. Are yeh paheli baar thodi hai ki main nahi hu pkan mein.
She chuckled and started to go.
Ritwik signaled Raghav to go with her.
Ritwik ,Ananya and Nandini left for their home. Raghav accompanied Ragini.
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FanfictionThis story is about an introvert girl. Who is the elder daughter of the family. She is insane but sane, immature but mature, emotionless but emotional. She has seen many things from her childhood and that affected her mind very badly. She just wants...
