Kuch kahena tha

Part - 29

They had their dinner and reached their home. Ragini settled on the swing in their balcony. Veer went to kitchen to take icecream tub.

R : Sunnyyy jaldi aao naaaaa.

V : aa gaya baba. Yeh lo. Tumhari favourite icecream.

R whinned : Sunny inha hum meri life ke baremein baat karne wale hai koi film nahi dekhne wale. Jo tum icecream leke aa gaye.

V : arre Laddoo, tumhari life kisi film se kam hai kya?

R : Sunnyyy be serious.

V : okay chalo..

He sat on the swing taking her on his lap.

Then she started sharing about her fear, her insecurities, her zid, her nadani, her fault, her being ignored, her being neglected, her getting alleged as a thief by her parents, her being compared to others everytime for everything.. she shared how she felt alone in a family of 4 members, how she started hiding every moment from her parents, how she got distant from her parents, how she felt being a elder sister, how she was always forced to do whatever her parents wanted, how she did not get any recognition, appreciation, acknowledgement within her own family.

At the end she was crying mess. He also let her cry but did not leave her. He held her tightly, hugged her and told her some soothing word to calm her down.

R : Sunny main main nahi kahe rahi ki main har waqt sahi thi par kabhi unhone mujhe samjha hi nahi.. apne hi ghar mein mujhe insecurity hoti thi, roshni se darr lagta hai. Logo se darr lagta hai. 😭😭 kabhi kabhi saanse ruk si jati hai.. kabhi lagta hai I don't care about anything or anyone. Aur kabhi kabhi lagta hai log kya kahenge agar main yeh kahu ya yeh karu toh.. i just don't understand what I want Sunny I just don't know.. 😭😭 I just craved for love Sunny just love. Maybe they love me but I didn't feel it Sunny. Why I didn't feel it? You also love me na.. so I can feel it, I can feel your love.. but I can't feel theirs sunny I can't feel theirs love 😭😭😭😭

She was getting hiccups.

V : bas Laddoo aur nahi .. 🥺 ho gaya na .. sab bol diya tune.. aab yeh sab mat sochna..

He was patting her back and kissing her forehead and hair to calm her down.

R : nahi Sunny.. aur bhi hai.. 🥺🥺 Sunny mujhe mujhe kisise pyar hua tha.. par usko nahi hua tha. Maine apni feelings usko nahi bataya par uski care uska friendship ko shayad maine pyar samajh baithi thi. He used to take information about Riddhu aur kuch din baad mujhe pata chala he liked Riddhu toh .. toh main piche hat gayi. Par I used to get hurt everytime when I saw them together. Pata hai once I got to know that they used to trick me saying they are not in talking terms but I saw them together in restaurants many times. But I didn't confront them.. main bas Ritwik se dur jane ki koshish karti thi.. aur ekdin mujhe pata chala wo Riddhima ke classmate se pyar karta hai.. uss din main bohot royi.. though I knew Ritwik mujhse pyar nahi karta but still dost toh mana tha na usne mujhe aise chupane ki kya zaroorat thi? Usko pata tha main usse pyar karti hu aur main usse dur jane ki koshish kar rahi hu phir bhi wo mujhse ake baat karta tha. I don't know inha kaun wrong hai kaun right.. but mujhe accha nahi lagta tha.. pata hai uski gf mere baremein kya kuch nahi boli par usne mujhe ek baar ke liye bhi defend nahi kiya.. not that I wanted but still.. ek umeed hoti hai.. uss waqt sabne mujhe hi samjhane ki koshish ki hai ki main weird behave na karu.. kaise main normal rahu bolo kaise?😭😭 Phir dheere dheere contact tut gaya aur hum kabhi mile nahi college ke baad.. aur maine yeh soch liya ki aab koi pyar nahi koi bharosa nahi hogi meri life mein.. mujhe aab wo feelings kabhi mahsoos nahi karna tha. 

V : aur abhi? 🥺

Ragini did not answer Veer's query but continued.

R : phir jab maine office join kiya trainning period mein ek ladka tha Ankit. Pata hai uski taraf mera ek attraction ban gaya tha. Phir maine aapne aapko bohot roka. Par .. par ekdin..