Freshman Year

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August 24, 2020. The day that changed my life. It was a nice Monday and my favorite class, history, and the group chat is blowing up. We are all posting our Snapchat usernames along with our Instagrams. I am immediately adding everyone so I can see more about their life. I am glad to see what people were like, who is dating, and who is single. The virtual class was good today since people made jokes in the comment section. My roommates and I decide to go to the grocery store so we can make dinner. While I am shopping Will starts snapping me. I keep showing my roommates how hot he is and how I am low-key developing a crush. I think if I start texting him about class, then I can get his number and then we can call and I can fully determine if it is a class crush or an actual one. I know there is Conner, but he is too far away. Will is right there and can easily see me. I am so flustered by men because I fall too fast and want someone to be in the same boat as me. I think Conner wants the same as me, however, he may not value the fact that I am waiting till marriage. Most men hear that and then run away because sex is so important in a relationship when it is not. "So what else do you know about him other than he is hot?" Ellie asks me. "Well I know he is southern and he is smart when it comes to history. I know it is not much but I am single and can play the field a little bit," I joke. "I just do not want you to get hurt in the end with all of this," Ellie tells me. Little did I know, I should have listened. I am very impressed with Christian snapping me back quickly because that means he thinks I look hot or he wants to get to know me. 

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I decide to straighten my hair one night since I am so bored and Conner snaps me this time with a huge smile on his face. So he must like me with straight hair. Now let me snap Christian with this hair and see if I get the same reaction. He snaps me back twenty minutes later but his mouth is open wide this time. Well, I know what I must do to get a guy to fall for me on campus. I am trying to talk to Conner but he keeps being bland with responses and just smiles or does a straight face. I am going back and forth between men which is exhausting but I have been played all summer and I deserve to have fun. I video my experience on my private Snapchat story so all of my friends know what is going on but I am deciding if I should add Conner to let him know that I am very interested and that he can tell in my voice how happy he makes me even though we barely speak. I am in awe of the fact that I have fallen for this man when he could be a piece of shit. Time will only tell with this one.