Freshman Year

8

No one is at my apartment. Everyone is with their boyfriends and I am so bored. I am in my room crying because I am upset that Lawson was on campus at the dorms for another girl. I guess he never cared about me and just wanted sex. I snap Christian and he asks why I am upset. I told him that I keep getting played by men. "One of them was a baseball guy and the other was just some douchebag," I tell him. He sends me a video of him talking. My heart flutters at the sound of his voice. "Some baseball men are not that bad. Maybe I know this guy," I decide to send him a video back. "He is not from around here. His name is Connor and he goes to a different college. Also nice southern accent," I reply. He was quick to respond. "I do not have a southern accent. I am sorry that happened to you," "It is ok. I have just been listening to Taylor Swift and Carrie Underwood. Do you like Taylor Swift?" I ask. I pray to god he does. "Yes, but I like her older stuff," I am trying so fucking hard to put him in the friend zone but he is so sweet and so hot. I am a sucker for a guy with a southern accent because I love them and it sounds sexy. "Yeah her older stuff is a bit better," I lie. We continue to snap videos for hours until he tells me he is going to bed. I am a bit sad since I am home alone and I want to do something fun. I am glad that I am somewhat making a friend because I can finally rant to someone about how lonely I am at my dorm. I wonder if I also made his night too. I hope he is also developing some feelings for me. I know we only talked once but my roommate told me that a man falls faster than a woman. 

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I am so glad that I have another essay/discussion because I did not pay attention to the lessons and I can ask Christian for help. I am just too nervous to ask. I hope he sees that I am doing it from snap and asks to do it via Facetime. I am going through the reading and I am struggling to add on to what the questions are asking. I keep thinking about why I did not pay attention in class but we all know the answer is because I was waiting for Christian to snap me during class to see what he thought about the lecture and the comments people made. I keep thinking that if we meet, it will be love at first sight like the movies. I have never felt this way about a guy before and I know I just "talked" to him once but he is such a genuine guy.