LOSING US || JENSOO

Storyline #34

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*JISOO's POV*
(Jennie's office)

"Don't you think, you should explain everything to us...jisoo!!", Mr. Kim voice startled me and uncovered my secret presence in their private conversation. I got no choice now, so i swiftly opened the door and entered the room but I'm not alone! Jin oppa is there with me as i met him before on the entrance and decided to eavesdrop on their conversation which he decline as he said that Mr. Kim asked him to be there but i stopped him to enter and we both now eavesdropping on their conversation. But as i entered that room, my eyes met with Jennie's and she was completely shocked for a moment and later in a fraction of time, her expression changes completely.

"..Uhm..Hello! Mr. Kim... It's good to see you after a long time", i said with a soft tone as we shared greetings with Mr. Kim which he warmly accepted and by now I'm fully aware about Jennie's changed expression.

"It's great to see you healthy, my child!", Mr. Kim replied with a sweet smile and gestured us to sit down. I sat beside jennie who's still stunned and jin oppa sat beside Mr. Kim. She must be cursing me... I can feel those cold air around her and that Volcanic anger in her eyes.

I nodded slightly and sat beside jennie who's eyes are fixed on me and as i looked at her, her eyes are filled with millions of emotions and questions which are clouding her mind and i looked straight into Jennie's eyes where i found no clarity which afraid me...so i immediately hold her hand firmly and gently entangled her fingers with mine. I don't know why i did that but maybe i was waiting for jennie to calm down or maybe for assuring that everything will be fine! But assuring whom?? Jennie?? Who's still finding herself lost and want to know the answer for her questions. Only i can give her way but i prefer not to tell her everything because i know how sensitive she is and i can't take any risk to lose her!

Or is it me who want some assurance that whatever i did in the past was meant for good though i know how much of the pain it caused everyone...jennie...rose...everybody but it also caused the same damage to me too. But i thinks it's better to endure some pain now so to have a better future. A future that need to be perfect because I'm tired of being someone to suffer now. I faced a lot through out my life and by now i only wish for a righteous way to be with my love, without any fear and regrets!!

"Just tell me jisoo!! I'm feeling like a burden on everybody...Please say that you didn't did anything stupid just to
'Save' me?!!!!" , suddenly Jennie soft whisper like voice ranged into my ears and it felt like a thousand of daggers banged into my heart at that moment.Jennie pleaded in her sad voice and i noticed how her red eyes got filled with tears and the way they are threatening for a fall but still not falling somehow showed that how much she's trying to avoid those tears from fall and stay strong in the moment.

"Jennie! Don't say that please!!", i replied back as i cupped her cheek in my hand and looked at her in a hope that she'll understand me.

"Just fucking tell me!!! Why are you being like this? Are you some sort of robot... That you can't feel pain, that you don't have any emotions, that being away from me doesn't hurt you like it did to me!!!...Why can't you share your heart with me? Am i that unworthy in your eyes for your love!!?...Jisoo!! Did you ever loved.... ", suddenly jennie stood up from her spot, and moved away from my hold and me, she shouted in anger and said a lot of things that hurt like hell but as i interpreted her last words, i immediately cut her off and slightly shouted back in anger as it make me feel so bad that she doubting my love for her!!

"Stop it jen!! I can endure everything in this world but you being doubtful for my love... It.. It.. It's really painful!! Don't say it ever again!!", i said in a sad tone and closed my eyes to gulped away the pain.