LOSING US || JENSOO

Storyline #33

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(Same day)
*Jisoo's POV*

As jennie left and i found myself still being stick to that place and smiling at her innocent words. Her words, her smile, her everything still has the same effect on me as i felt years ago! She is someone i cherish at every stage of my life. I wonder how stupid i was that i hated her! Yeah, i did and i regret it till today and will regret it till my last breath! She amaze me everytime and Just how come she managed to change me so much... Sometime i wonder if my feelings are enough to make her realise that i love her and can't live without her! A fear always engulfed my heart what if one day she will hate me? What will i do at that time?

But again, her smile assured me, that will never happen. I believe her because i know i somehow managed my previous heart broke because i was destined to meet her....

My jennie! My everything!!

I know it's stupid of me to think about such negative aspects but that day, when i met Joy after all those years... Every memory of past just came back immediately and the uneasiness and uncertainty i felt about myself was too much to bear. I'm very well aware about everything that is going around me and how people treat me and hides inside them... I know everything but when it comes to jennie, i always find myself wondering, what she think of me? Does she also think, I'm selfish!?, does she think, I'm ruined? Does she think if she could love me? Does she think if i could be good for her in anyway?!

Every emotion tends me to drift away from her because i felt I'm not good for her but again she chased me down and defeated my each and every worry with her smile. The moment her forehead connects with mine and her arms circled around my neck and her eyes closes, introducing her beautiful eyelashes, her smile and her habit of sniffing a bit, maybe to feel assured herself that she's in familiar arms and once she feel assured, her satisfied smile!!, everything about that moment make me feel euphoric and assured that she don't need anything in her life but a hand to hold and someone to walk beside her... No matter what! I'm beyond lucky that she choose me to be that someone! And i wanna prove her that she's not wrong when she chose me!

It's been years since i lost my everything but now, i don't wanna cry over anything because now i have her to cherish my whole life! I remember when i got the news that my dad died... My whole world just crumbled down! I was left with nothing and when my mom blamed everything on my and thrown me out of the house, i lost the hope to live... I never thought, that i have to deal with each and every pain at once but i managed to survive it because i was destined to meet her! During my recovery time, i always questioned, "why I'm still alive?".

I didn't realise the reason at that time but now i know why i have survive that time! She's the reason that I'm alive! She's the one who completes the void of my heart!

*Ring.... Ring.... Ring*

My phone ranged into my ears and brought me back from my thoughts. I looked at the screen and picked up when i saw Mina's name on the screen.

"Hey Mina! Everything alright?", i asked immediately as she never called me this late so it made me worried.

"Hi jisoo! Yeah... Everything is fine actually i called you because there is a issue at company but you left earlier so i wasn't able to inform you!", she replied in her soft voice.

" What happened? ", i asked in a confused state because when i left this evening, i was aware that everything was going great so right now I'm curious what happened.

" Actually this is about.... (Only jisoo heard her voice)", She explained everything to me and i can only let out a sigh because of it.

"I'll see into it, Mina! Thanks again and please ask him to endure it... I'll sort out everything soon!", jisoo replied in a most calm voice of hers and took a deep breath to keep her calm.