Irresistible Love

21 | London Boy

Ellie's POV:

We now sat on the airplane.

And even though it was private, Anthony and Beverly still insisted on sitting on the other side of the plane, leaving me and Nik by ourselves on the other half of the plane.

And as we waited for take off, Nik sat right next to me.

His legs sat still, as his finger sat above his chiseled chin, and his eyes distracted by the window.

Me on the other hand, hated planes with a passion.

Never liked them. Never wanted to be on one.

I guess I thought as I got older I would overcome this fear of being this high in the air, but nope. I am still a big chicken.

I felt the sweat begin to creep down my back as I tried to cross my legs for some comfort, but soon found that I was bouncing them.

My breathing began to hasten, as I felt my whole body begin to shrivel up.

And I think Nik noticed because I am pretty sure he side eyed me.

I could tell he was trying to not react, as we had agreed to be as civil and not romantic as possible. We had to be sneaky. We had to be careful.

Because lord knows what would happen.

A small growl came from him as he finally let go of the urge to turn his head towards me.

"Are you ok?" He asked in a gentle tone.

I shook my head as I could feel my finger nails digging into the leather seat. We weren't even taking off, and I was a mess. Honestly, embarrassing.

"Fine." I replied. My response very short and to the point.

But he knew I was lieing right away because he gave me a 'are you serious' look.

"You look like you are about to have a panic attack"

My eyes glanced at him for a few seconds before I closed them, and glued them shut.

"I am fine. Just don't like airplanes. That's all."

"Ah. So your afraid."

My eyed opened wide as I exhaled out. "No. Not afraid. Terrified."

He covered his mouth politely as I could tell he was trying to hold back a chuckle.

Fucking prick.

"It's NOT funny." I responded.

"No. No. I am not laughing at that. I'm-" He began to say before pausing.

I immediately turned towards him as his eyes and eyebrows changed positions.

He ran his fingers threw his black locks, as he sighed out.

"Give me your hand." He said.

A puzzled look painted my face. "Why?"

"Just trust me." Were the last words that left his lips before he immediately slid his hand down on the arm rest.

He opened his hand out, spreading his fingers, his veins popping out of his arms. He wanted me to hold his hand.

And no matter how much we shouldn't do something as simple as holding hands, I really needed something or someone to comfort me through take off. And if Nik was the only thing that could do the job, well, so be it.

I sat my hand in his as my fingers immediately locked with his.

The warmth from both of our hands locked in, as I felt his soft skin in my grasp, automatically sending a calming effect up my body.

"Now. I am going to hold your hand through take off. And I promise that everything is going to be ok. I am here."

Just hearing those words sent a relief through me.

I couldn't help but look up at him and smile with my big red lips petruding from my face, and the same goes for him.

His stunning smirk, left me in shambles as we soon found the plane taking off.

But even as we began to take off, for some reason I didn't feel any sort of nervousness. And in fact, I felt perfectly fine.

I guess my mind was so focused on Nik that I hadn't even had time to worry about the butterflies storming through my stomach, or the headache I always get when I am about to have a panic attack.

I hadn't felt this safe in a long time.

I hadn't felt this secure with someone, to where all my anxiety and worries practically melted away. If anything all my past relationships even heightened them.

But he didn't. He made me feel different. He made me feel at ease.

And I loved it. A part of me did worry, but only for the sake of ending this. And I didn't even know what THIS is. I had no idea. We hadn't even discussed it.

But how could we? This has to remain a secret until I can figure out how to break the news to Anthony. And to be honest, that's the part that scared me the most.