Irresistible Love

47 | My Past

Ellie's POV:

*2 HOURS LATER*

Being in this hospital, has been fucking terrible. And honestly, I sort of wish I was asleep again.

I hated being stuck in this bed and not being able to do anything. But unfortunately, that was doctors orders.

They were very happy that I awoke. But, I still had to be here for 1 more day for observations and checks.

So currently, I just finished eating my dinner. And now I was watching the news on the television. The same 3 events have popped up some many times, I am about to go insane.

Nikolai wasn't here, because he was going to get me some stuff at the house. Like clothes, toiletries, etc, since my clothes I wore during the fire were basically covered in blood or permanentely stained. So I went ahead and told the nurses to throw them away.

****

All the sudden, my ears filled with the sound of my door opening.

And as soon as I heard the click, my eyes darted towards the wooden object as it swinged open. Not revealing Nikolai, and not revealing any nurses.

Anthony.

His eyes stared me down, as his lips parted slightly. He stood in the doorway frozen in place. His hand stuck on the door handle.

"Anthony." I whispered out.

I couldn't help but feel almost emotional seeing his face.

He reminded me so much of mom, that knowing that he was all the family I had left killed me. It killed me knowing that he probably knows that she didn't make it by now.

"Ellie." He said as he shut the door behind him and began to walk over to the left side of the bed, filling the side that Nikolai wasn't on.

"I am so sorry." He gently said.

I shook my head. "You don't need to say anything."

He shook his head in return as he reached out for my hand. I gently put my palms into his grasp, as he squeezed them gently.

"No. Let me explain, please."

I got quiet as I let him speak.

"When I first found you and Nik in that hotel hallway, kissing on the wall. I felt so betrayed. I felt betrayed because I thought of all people, you would have not lied to me about anything like that. Considering, I had been trying to get you with someone for a long time. And so I lashed out. At both you and Nik. And I shouldn't have done that without listening to your guys part of the story first. And after I sat and thought about it for weeks, and Beverly putting some sense into me." He said with a eye roll.

I couldn't help but giggle. That's my girl.

"I realized. That although Nikolai may not be perfect. I know that I am not either. And the way that he looked at you when he thought you died on the beach. I knew that he truly loved you El. I knew that no matter what, he was going to fight to be with you, BECAUSE he cared so much for you."

A short pause came between us, as I felt some tension began to drop.

"So for that reason. I want you to be together with Nikolai. And if that is what you truly want. I don't want to stand in your way."

I smiled. "You mean it?"

He nodded. "I do."

I put my hand to his cheek, as he smiled brightly at me. Not the type of smile that he was happy. But rather, the type that he was contempt.

"Mom is gone." He said. His tone of voice immediately dropping.

That feeling of emptiness creeped back onto my skin.

I nodded slowly. "I know." I felt my voice begin to break, as well as my swollen eyes.

I have cried so much over these past couple of weeks, I wouldn't be surprised if I could make a whole fucking river.

"I am so sorry that you had to watch her die like that Ellie. If I could do anything to take that out of your head I would in a minute."

I sighed out. "It's not your fault, Anthony. She had no choice. And I did my absolute best to save her, but I couldn't. If anything, I am the one to blame.

His grip on my palms tightened. "Stop. Don't you say that Ellie. You know damn good and well that their is nothing more you could have done. For the love of God, you got shot in the shoulder?!"

I looked down. "I know. But still. I fear that she is disappointed in me."

His eyes narrowed. "Ellie. She is not disappointed in you. She is probably PROUD of you. You stood your ground, you fought to keep her alive. You fought for HER. And you shouldn't blame yourself for that."

I nodded. "That's basically what Nikolai said."

Anthony scoffed. "Finally, the bastard says something smart."

I couldn't help but laugh through my tears.

"But I am serious El. Don't blame yourself. She wouldn't want you to do that. She would want you and me to live on with our children, and partners. She would want us to live FOR her."

I smiled slightly as I nodded in agreement.

He also grinned slightly.

"I am proud of you, Ellie."

I felt a single tear slide down my cheek. "God, Anthony, please don't make me cry."

He shrugged his shoulders. "I can't promise anything little sis."

I narrowed my eyes. "Did you forget we are twins dumbass?"

His head tilted to the side. "Yes, but I am still older."

I rolled my eyes in annoyance. "Yes by like one minute."

He laughed, as did I.

Both of our eyes stared into one another for a few seconds, before Anthony stood up from his chair as he leaned over the bed, as he wrapped his arms around my body. Embracing me in a hug.

I did the same thing for him, as I hugged him and his muscles tightly.

I didn't honestly want to let go of this hug. Knowing that all me Anthony had was each other, sent something in my body that I hadn't experienced in a long time.

Like a feeling that I loved, but also a feeling that was not pleasant.

Just a simple feeling that I had to learn to adapt with the fact that my mother wasn't here with us anymore.

****

Anthony soon left, due to the amount of work he had to do at the office.

But as I sat once again by myself in my room, all I could do was either look outside, or stare at the television.

I suddenly heard my phone ring.

I reached out in front of me, as I realized it was Nikolai.

I immediately answered it with a smile attached to my lips.

"Hey. When are you getting here?"

He laughed. "Miss me already?"

I rolled my eyes. "Don't get cocky now, Russo, I am only talking to you because I want my stuff."

He chuckled once more, "Doubtful. But, I have to take care of something before I come back. So it might be a little longer."

I narrowed my eyes in suspicion. "What are you doing?" I asked.

"Eh. I have to go and visit an old friend. We need to have a little chat."