poems

What is this???

What is this feeling??

It's nothing I've ever felt before

I smile when ever I hear your name

Everything I do or see makes me think of you

I want to be by your side for eternity

I want to hold on tight to you and never let go even if it meant giving up everything else

I want to make you happy and every time you are sad it's like a knife slowly piercing my heart

I want to torture anyone that hurts you and make then pay for their crimes

Anyone that makes you cry is a monster

I made you cry

I'm a monster but

I don't care

I know what this feeling is

This feeling is love

I love you with my heart and soul

So I don't care if I'm a monster I will always hold onto what I love and I love you

I will never let you go

You keep me sane in my fucked up life

You keep me from wanting to disappear into the abyss

You are my life raft and keep me above water

You are my shoulder to cry on

But I never want you to see me weak

If I'm weak I won't be able to protect you when you need me too

But I sure as hell will do my best

Wanna know why?

Because

I love you.....

Or I did.....

till you decided I wasn't worth the work

Till you decided you weren't feeling it anymore

Till you made me believe we had something special then stomped on it

You crushed my heart to smithereens

I told you everything I trusted you

But I guess it was a mistake

You told me lies just like every one else

You made me feel wanted then like I didn't deserve to live

You lifted me up only to push me back fifteen feet further

You destroyed my self esteem

You showed me happiness then made me feel even more empty then before

You told me you would always make me smile but your the reason I'm crying

I hate you

But I also love you

I love the memories

I love the way you smiled

I love the way I could be crazy but you wouldn't care

But I hate you for ruining it all you destroyed everything for me

So right now I love/hate you with all my heart