Restrained

Ivy

 I watch as Maz leaves the room, not bothering to look back. I know that I hurt him for what I said. I didn't mean to hurt him. I didn't mean to say that, but I know I can't take it back after I said it. I don't wish death on either of them. I'll have to apologize later, if he even forgives me. For now, I need to heal Leo. I don't care if I forget. It's worth it.

I position my hands and dig for that powerful feeling again, but I have this guilt gnawing at my insides. I ignore that feeling and grab the will, feeling it heat up my palms, but I let go. I don't know why I'm hesitating.

I look down at Leo's lifeless face. A tear falls down my cheek, splashing into the pool of blood. Maz is right. Leo wouldn't want this for me. I can feel it.

I get up as my heart is protesting, but I know Leo would probably be furious with me if I healed him. It's almost like I can hear him yelling at me. I smile at the thought. He will always be with me. This man is probably haunting me at this very moment.

"If you're there Leo. I love you. And I'm sorry." Another tear falls from my face. "I never meant to hurt you like this, and I'm so sorry. If you ever find it in your heart to forgive me, I'll be there with you shortly." I whisper, hoping he can hear me.

I turn around and leave the throne room. I need to look for Maz. I find him standing outside the door, looking at the ground. I hope he didn't hear me.

"I didn't do it." I say. He doesn't answer, nor look at me. "I'm sorry Maz."

He looks up with a small smile.

"It's okay. I forgive you. I would have done the same if I was in your place. The person who should be apologizing is me." He says.

"What-"

He hotels his hand up to quiet me.

"I'm sorry I wasn't there for you when you needed me the most, and I'm sorry that I wasn't strong enough to save you from your father the first time."

"It's okay Maz. I know you can;t always be there for me, and I'm sorry that I hit you and knocked you out earlier today." I smile.

"That was a lucky shot." He laughs. "I wasn't expecting it."

I laugh along with him.

"Am I forgiven?" I ask.

He stares at me with a small smile.

"That depends." He says, his voice dropping to seriousness.

"On what?"

He leans forward, raising one arm over on the side of my head, trapping me against him and the wall behind me.

"If I'm forgiven." He whispers.

I look up into his icy blue eyes, trying to control my heart beat, praying he can't hear it.

"Yeah." I breathe.

"Yes what?" He asks, leaning in closer, taking dominance.

"You're forgiven."

Maz smiles, lingering there, then pulls away. How can I feel like this at a time like this? Leo just died before my very eyes, yet, I still feel for Maz.

"Let's go." Maz says.

"Go where?" I ask, following him as he walks away.

"I need to prepare my father for tonight."

"Oh yeah."

I follow Maz silently as I think about Leo, and how different things will be back at home. The only person who kept me out of trouble was Leo. Without him I would have been in a lot of serious trouble. Now without him? I don't know what I will do, if I can even go back. I don't want to go back. There's nothing there for me. Mother and the siblings will have more food if I'm not there.