❀wedding blues❀

part 1

(7:00 am, Oct 23)

It was the day. The special day... As I put on my white tuxedo with lovely flowers on it I look in the mirror. I can do this... As I waited for my hairstylist and makeup artist, I heard a bang on the floor. It seemed to come from my finance's dressing room. I knocked on the door and yelled out, "Rui is everything okay?" no response. Okay, Tsukasa, that was nothing, maybe something fell off. I decided to head off to my room until... I heard a groan. I knew it was bad luck seeing your other before the wedding, but I need to check if he was okay cause it sounded like a hard collision. I opened the door, and nobody was there, but it seemed like something fell off the bed. I look at the floor where I see piles of blankets have been pushed around... I saw one of my groomsmen, on the floor, sleeping. I gasped and quickly shut the door and left the room. Tears started flowing down my face. I was so confused as to why they were there. I rushed to my dressing room and slammed the door shut.

Was Rui cheating on me? On our wedding day?

My brain was a blur and something in me just lit. "How could he do this to me!" I yelled out. I started pushing things off the dresser and trashing my room. Bottles and clothes flew across my room like a tornado had just been there. I sat on the floor bawling my eyes... What am I going to do...

Knock, Knock, Knock

I heard someone knock at the door. I started to wipe the tears from my face and cleared my throat. I go to open the door and see Emu and Saki. "Eh! Tsukasa are you okay?" yelled Emu as she ran for a hugging me so ever so tight. I didn't like being squished but it felt comforting for once.

"Yea, I'm fine Emu," I sniffled. Saki looked at me. I could tell she knew something was up.

"Brother, what's wrong? There's no way you're crying for no reason! Tell us!" yelled Saki. She was so determined to know; maybe because she was my sister and we cared for each other, and we had each other's backs. But I didn't want to share or talk about it. Something in my stomach twisted thinking about what I saw.

"I'm just nervous...It's just crazy how me and Rui are finally going to be married. I'm just worried if he'll say no..." I lied looking down. When I looked back at them their happy expressions seemed calmer. I am a star, I never lied, not even to my sister. It felt so wrong " But it's alright!" I muttered, "Because we've been together for almost throughout high school to early adulthood."

Emu hugged me again but, tighter. Saki joined too. Tears started to overflow my face. "It's an okay big brother! It's just wedding blues! Everyone goes through it," said Saki. But something sparked something in me after hearing that. Wedding blues...huh...

"Don't worry guys. A star will surpass through the blues! For I am a star!" I said with pride, but I knew it was all a lie. They intended to stay and help me get ready, but I told them I would be alright doing it myself. I fix up my hair and tuxedo and start heading to the bathroom to check myself out to look presentable to my peers. I wasn't sure if I was ready or maybe if I just wanted to leave my dear," groom".

As I made my way through, I saw someone leaving Rui's room. It was my fiancé.

"So eager to see me that you didn't care about unluckiness, Tsukasa?" smirked Rui.

So cheeky but I loved that about him. But yet those words hurt. I was trying to speak but words didn't come out right. Another wave of tears fell. Ugh, a star shouldn't be crying. I'm such a crybaby.

"Hey, Hey Tsukasa, sweetheart, calm down. shhh... Did something happen?" Rui said in such a sweet tone. The sweetness of his words burned me and felt like venom filled me. His words stung me. I still loved him, but it hurts knowing what I saw. He held me in his arms. It hurt so much more. I felt like puking or collapsing just there; leaving myself to die.

"No, I'm just not feeling so well," I muttered. Rui smiled and grabbed my cheek.

"Yeah, it's our new chapter in our lives. So, chin up the ceremony is about to start. See you soon." whispered Rui. The comforts felt nice but painful. I hugged him back, but once I let go of the hug, I noticed the pink lipstick kiss on his tuxedo's collar. I knew I didn't have any lipstick on or even plan to wear some. But I felt like everything he told me was a lie. His deceitful tricks...His manipulation...All to lie in my face shattered my heart into millions of pieces. I quickly left for the bathroom and lock myself. in there.

The voices in my head told... Leave him... He deserves to feel that pain you feel. Yet again... What type of star causes more pain to others who hurt him? Doesn't it make me just as bad or even worse...