❀wedding blues❀

part 4...

( ???? , Oct ???)

Beep, beep, beep, beep, -

Huh... What time is it?

I opened my eyes slowly as I looked around. Seemed to be in my house. Laying in my bed felt comfy and safe. Then eventually I remember what happened. 

Was it all a dream? Did I and Rui never get married? Did Rui never cheat on me?

More questions went through my head. As I started to sit up, I noticed Rui sleeping at his desk with lots of papers and trash. I look at what was on the papers which were some robot sketches and silly little doodles. But a paper caught my attention. It read: "Apologies to Guests".

So, it wasn't a dream after all.

hmm??- 

 I was frightened by the noise of Rui waking up. "Tsukasa?" I heard Rui sluggishly mutter. He sat up with his glimmery eyes widened and hair all messed up. He hugged me tight as ever. "Are you okay?" I heard him say so timidly. I felt guilty that I made someone sad or worried; a star should never do that. 

"I'm fine... could you please let go through..." I murmured. I felt as if sharp needles left my skin after he let go of the hug. He held my arm and brushed it ever so slightly. Tears started falling down my cheek. I noticed he was sad and tearing up. Maybe I ruined everything, yet it was also his fault too. Then, I felt the warmth of a hand cupping my cheek. It was Rui's. It felt so comforting but bad. He tried to kiss me, but I jerked my head away. 

"Tsukasa-honey, what's wrong? Is it what happened at the wedding? If so it's okay!" Rui told me soothingly. It felt reassuring but I can't let go of the cuffs tied to him. I was trapped but I wanted to be. But I wanted to know... I needed to know if what I saw was true. 

"Rui... at the wedding umm..." I stuttered. The room felt eerie as a stumbled with my words.

"Tsukasa? What at the wedding?" Rui told me softly kissing my forehead. I couldn't bare much. I needed to confront Rui. For whom was in his bed? But I was scared of what was the outcome that awaited me. 

"Rui, I went to your dressing room, and I saw...someone in your bed. I just want to know if you wouldn't want to be with me. Or in fact, you rather be with someone else, unlike me, a person who is not worthy of the title of a star." I felt those sharp pains in my heart; tears pouring out of my eyes.

Why did I have to cry? I'm such a baby! No wonder I'm not a star nor Rui's future husband. I'm not good enough. Why? Why me? 

Rui still cupped my cheek as I sobbed. He held my hand. My heart is pounding for an answer.

....

"Honey, your so s-silly, fufu..." Rui hesitantly said, "What are you talking about? I would never cheat. You're the only one for me" In my eyes, He looked nervous or even anxious. I knew he was lying. My heart dropped knowing he was lying to my face.

So, it wasn't my imagination...I knew his intentions... But would I just ignore it and move on? What were my choices to this very point?

 I hated lies, especially from him; venom he poured into my heart. I couldn't take it anymore...

Silence filled the air, "I would never cheat, my star... Why would you say such a thing though?" he told me.

"What about the kiss marks on your suit or the person in your bed!?" I shouted at him. I didn't think I could do such a thing. Tears at this point fled through my cheek. His eyes watering as well. My heart was shattered with no point of return. "I hate you! You are better off with that person, Rui!" I yelled at him. I push him away and try to run but, he only grabbed my arm again. I tried to free myself, but I couldn't. His grip was too tight.

"Tsukasa-Kun, I love you but I'm sorry! I'd like to admit I did cheat! But I didn't mean it! It was a mistake! Leave me all you want!" Rui yelled back at me sobbing. He covered his mouth and sat there holding my arm bawling. My eyes widened... tears fled through my eyes too. I wanted to scream and shout I hated for his lies and dishonesty... But I couldn't.

 I loved Rui but the only things left were shattered hearts and tears. But to go as far as what he did to me. If he loved me...Why?  

I needed space or a breather. I pushed his arm off me, and I rushed out of the bedroom door. I rushed to the bathroom and locked the door. All I heard was my sharp heavy breaths and my heart beating so fast.

"I didn't mean it!" I heard him sobbing outside. "It wasn't supposed to happen... It was a trick. I didn't mean it" Rui bawled outside. 

What did he mean...I couldn't bear the moment to go ask. 

I gave us space...for now...