Little Dove - Rafe Cameron story

8

Valerie

It's been a few days. Leno hasn't tried to get me and left me alone locked in my room. I haven't gotten up in a month and a half. My stomach hurts but I've been ignoring it.

After a few hours there's knocking on my door. "Leno go!" The knocking is getting more harder. I get up and slam the door open. I see Sarah with tears streaming down her face holding a piece of paper.

I sigh. "John B broke up with you?" She shakes her head walking into my room. "Then..what?" She holds the paper to me. "Rafe..." I stare at her. She holds the paper up more. I look at it and it says Dovey on the front. I look up at her. "How'd you know this was me?" She looks at me. "Your the only one he calls Dove. Plus that's your name in his phone trying to hide it's you." I nod my head biting my lip.

I open the paper reading it.

Dear Val,

If you get this note then I'm dead hopefully. I'm sorry I couldn't do more to help you. I'm sorry I chose drugs to help cope. I might as well put this in here cause I'll be gone by the time you get this so it shouldn't matter that much. Hopefully you can forgive me cause I got feelings for you for no reason. Actually that's a lie I've always liked you since you were Sarah's friend the first time around I just hid it cause your my sisters best friend and I couldn't do that to Sarah. I was hoping this deal we made would make us closer but it made us further apart and I didn't want that. So I don't wanna ruin your life more. So I'm leaving everyone behind and make everyone happy. So hopefully you can be happier...keep eating please and get better without me

-Rafe Cameron
Ps. Stop being stupid and show everyone the pretty dove I see you as.

I look up at Sarah. "You read it..." She shakes her head. "No I just read the dear to make sure it was for you so I knew who to give it to..." I stare at her with tears in my eyes. My hair is in my face. "Is he..." She shakes her head.

"No Wheezie found him...he's in the hospital but he's not looking good. Ward and Rose are pissed. I ran here when I found the note..." I look down. This is my fault. I was his last hope for life and I ripped it from him.

I silde against my wall holding the note in my hands. Sarah comes up to me. "He loved you for a while...he just doesn't know how to show emotions....I'm sorry you guys never found out..." I shake my head and throw the note. "Why did he listen! I was upset!" Tears are streaming down my face more. "You are the love of his life...I feel gross saying it Val but he grew close to you after the bonyard and figured out his feelings for you after you didn't talk to him for a month...he was so worried about you..." I look at her.

"I wanna see him.." She nods her head and lifts me up. I set the note of my bed. I was downstairs and Leno looks over at me. "Go." We walk out and go to the hospital. Sarah drives us in Lenos car. We get to the hospital and I see Rose and Ward. They glare at me. Guess they figured out what I said... I walk over to his room and slowly open the door looking at him.

He has fresh cuts all over his arms. He's hooked up to many machines. Well Ward and Rose probably found out about his hurting himself now. I walk over to the chair next to his bed.

I grab his hand looking at his arm. "Rafe...I know you can't hear me...but I'm sorry...hell i probably love you too...but I can't get attached to you cause you'll leave me like you have done just now. I never meant to say I wanted you to die...that was my fault.. I was upset and wasn't thinking straight...but I do care about you a lot. You made my life brighter then what it was...especially at midsummers i didn't need to fake anything around you cause you knew everything about me already...there's no point in hiding anything from you...but I guess I hide my feeling cause I've been growing feelings for you but I can't act on them cause I'm scared of them..."

I look down at his hand again and lay my head on his stomach. His breath is very hallow. I cry and cry till a fall asleep.