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Confessions and Decisions
Harry went into the kitchen again where an anguished Johanna looked at him with tears in her eyes.
'How is he?' she asked him. Harry ran a hand through his hair.
'He won't speak and he won't move. Ever since Walter delivered the news, its like he has retreated inside his head. He has dissociated.' Harry told her sadly. 'I've never seen him like this and I don't know what to do to help him because he is unresponsive.' Johanna cried harder.
'It is all my fault. I shouldn't have pressed him to get me that divorce when I knew he was still terrorized of him. He has told me before many times to leave things as they are and not stir anything up but I wouldn't listen. Now look what I've done to him.' Harry couched down beside her wheelchair and took her hand.
'Jay its not your fault. None of this is by any means your fault. Things happen that we have no control over. Louis is strong. He has weathered so many harsh things in his life, he will weather this too and I am going to be with him through it all. However, we should be ready that once he comes out of this and he makes a decision, we have to accept it. If he thinks that he is not ready to face him, we can't force him Jay. I know you want a divorce but I won't stand by and watch him do something he is not ready to do. He has to come to that decision on his own at his own time and pace. Jay, I love him and I don't want to lose him. It's hard seeing him like this.' Johanna dabbed at her eyes with a tissue.
'Yes of course Harry. I will accept whatever decision he makes and I would never dream of forcing him to do anything he is not ready to do.' Harry looked at her, his eyes soft and kind.
'Now that he knows that his father wants to see him, I don't think he will want to go through with any of it anymore and I don't blame him. When he told me all that had happened to him, he retreated too. He wouldn't let me in and he was terrified. Literally terrified. I had to call Anthony to help him.' Harry paused. 'Talking of which, I should call him and call Lynn to tell her he won't be in today. I'm not going to Uni either. I won't leave him alone. Not when he's like this.' Johanna cupped his face.
'Your love for him is amazing Harry. It keeps him strong. I am so glad he has found you.' Harry gave her a smile, stood up and took out his phone from his pocket. He dialed Lynn and she answered after the first ring.
'Good morning Lynn, its Harry...I'm alright thank you...Listen, Louis will not be in today...he's a little under the weather....yeah I think it might be the flu....I will let you know when he's coming back...thank you Lynn...have a good day.' Harry hung up then dialed Anthony. When Anthony picked up, Harry explained the situation to him and asked if he could do a house visit to see to Louis. Anthony agreed to come as soon as possible. Harry hung up and sighed heavily.
'Alright, that's all sorted,' he told Johanna as he walked towards the kettle and flipped it on. 'Tea?' he asked her and Johanna nodded. Just then Judy walked in.
'How is he?' she asked Harry. Harry shrugged.
'He's lost somewhere inside his head and I hate that I can't reach him to pull him back out. It was such a shock for him. Hopefully he will be back to us soon,' Harry told them as he began taking out cups and mugs. 'Judy, would you like a cup of tea?' Judy gave him a smile.
