Never have I ever

07

No. That wasn't the end of the story.
I installed my WhatsApp later that night. John asked me why I left the group.
There was a text from Mary too. I didn't replied to their text instead I asked Charles number from her and resaved it. I reason out I deleted the wrong Charles while cleaning my junk contacts.

I texted him if he's back from his work.
I texted him goodnight
I texted him goodmorning
I texted him inquiring if he's okay.
I texted him I'm leaving for class
I texted him about my day

I burst out into tears again when the night fall and there's no answer from his side. One more day. If there's no answer from him I'll delete him. I'll move on from him . That's what I thought to myself.
How could I made the mistake of getting attached too fast to someone I barely know?. How blinded was I to not notice any sign that he would ghost me like this?. We were fine the previous day and the next day he were gone. And the saddest part is no one knows about us. I had no one to talked to about my problem. While my world sadly crumbles the Earth revoles as if nothing happens.
And while I am busy fighting for us , for a reason to save us he may be out there enjoying his life like I never happened.

How sad.

Another goodmorning text sent.
And I stopped.
I want to rant so much. But to whom do I rant when the one person who listens to me is the one abandoning me now ?

How sad

Day 3 of no answer from him. No call back. No reply.
That's the most I could allow myself to break for someone who doesn't care about me.

Day 4.
I woke up , showered and had my breakfast. Went to class.

It was hard to pretend to stay strong and unaffected by what's happening in my life. I'm thankful I'm not friends with the whole class. Julie was the only one I hang out most. She knows about Charles and I buy lately I didn't update her. So, she's unaware of my broken heart.

"Where's your assignment?", Julie reached out her hand.
"Hgh? What assignment?", I asked startled.
"Oh my gosh! Celine. Paper 504 assignment.", She explained.
I stayed a moment silent trying to recall anything.
And heol, I missed it. I was so occupied with my heartbreak that I neglected my studies.

When I looked back at her ,she was already watching me with sad eyes.
I raised my eyebrows questioning her.
She ignored me and started putting back my notebook to my Tote bag and dragged me out of our seat.
It was all so sudden, I stumbled as I asked "where are we going? The class gonna start in 5 minutes"

"Library", she answered shortly.

It was a silent walked to the library. She never acts this way unless she's mad at me. And even if she's mad at me she never abandoned me. That's why I love her. Abandon.
The word reminded me of Charles and my mind tries to travel back to the sad moment. I wasn't given the chance to travel down the memory lane. We reached library.

She took few A4 size paper from the librarian and we find an isolated place in the corner of the hall and sat there
She took out her assignment and place the blank sheets and said in an authoritive voice," I know you're not fine but I won't press you. I'll wait instead. But this assignment need to be submitted today or else you won't get good internal mark".
I murmured my thanks to her. She knows that I am not fine? Is it that obvious?
I started copying my assignments from her. Lucky me. The teacher gave us the same topic for the assignment.
After writing few lines I made the mistake of mixing it with the other paragraph text. I took another blank sheet and restart from the beginning.
She has her eyes on her phone.

I couldn't stand Julie giving me silent treatment. So, I blurted out "Charles ghosted me".

She turns her attention to me. I pressed the pen tip hard on the paper. Julie sense the tension between my pen and the paper .  My tears began to rolled down and fell on the paper.
She passed me a tissue. And took the pen away from me.
She took a blank sheet and starts writing the assignment for me
"You'll need to tell me all the details but now we have to finish this."

She gave me a sideways glance and a smiled. I wiped away my tears and force myself to smile.

Maybe someday I won't need to fake it.