Never have I ever

06

He watched his phone ring dies and looked at me and said he had to go

That's it? He came all the way here and stayed only for couple of minutes and he's leaving?

I answered,"okay". Ofcourse I was disappointed but how could I make it obvious to him. Now that he's leaving after getting a phone call of which he didn't tell me anything about, maybe it's important that he needs to leave. And I don't want to be a burden so I have to let him go

He stood for a moment at the door and gave me a brief forehead kiss, "Get well soon", he says and he left .

With a sighed I closed the front door , dragged my feet to the common room and sat down with a huff. Why am I feeling disappointed?

I took the package he bought and went to my room. I placed it in one of my drawers. I'll check that once I get better.

It's evening when I wake up from my nap. My parents were back. I ate dinner and took medicine. I was starting to feel better. I have an exam tomorrow  and I can't afford to be sick. So, I took my medicine and went to bed.

There's a goodnight, rest well text from him. It made me smiled for milliseconds and then, my mind travelled back to the afternoon where he just left me. He never explained to me what the call was about or who it was.  I don't want to be   a nosy person or to be an  insecure and possessive girl. So, I wait for him  to speak on that matter first. He never did that night.
I slept with a heavy heart.

The next day I woke up feeling all better. I send him a goodmorning text like usual.

While I was eating breakfast I scanned my notes for today's test. Yet there is not reply from him. It's past his wake up time. I tried to shoved away his thoughts as I slinged my tote bag and leave for class.

I did my test okay. Not good not well but okay. I keep checking my phone yet there is no sign of texts or missed call from him. This had never happened before.
I can't help but to be worried. Did I do something weird yesterday?
I shoved my phone away promising myself that I'll call him once I reach home until then no checking of phone.

After class I went to the near by cafe which was our usual and stayed there for a pastry. He didn't show up. Maybe he's busy with work,my mind made up and excuse to defend him. My eyes started to well up and I prevent myself crying there in the cafe by biting my lower lips inner tissue. Fuck him

As soon as I reached home I was really in a bad and emotional mood. I placed my tote bag calmly on my study table, took out the phone and dialed his number.

First ring
You're a dead meat

Second ring
Fucking stupid asshole

Third ring
Jerk

And the call got ended. I dialed it again

Ended in voicemail.

Dialed it again
And again
And again
And again
And again

Texted him , "please pick up. You're worrying me"

Dialed again.
And again
And again.

I didn't realised that my tears were streaming down my face already. I bit my lower lips as hard as I can to prevent myself from losing control until I started to taste something metallic. That's when I realised my lips are bleeding too.

Open my WhatsApp and mindlessly scrolled our chats. And I noticed he removed his profile and last seen. I wiped away my tears and sat on the floor ,my bed supporting my back which otherwise if not there I don't believe I would have the strength to sit straight.

Did he blocked me?
If so, what did I do?

I exited the app and went to my contact and almost dialed John number. I held back mys. He doesn't know. No one in the group knows Charles and I had something going on. Instead I exited from the group and delete my WhatsApp.
I type one last text to Charles," Jerk". And deleted his contact.
I hugged my knees and cried my heart out  that evening.