COMA

I am in love with a fairy tale

"Are you sure, that was the right decision my friend?" Neo raised an eyebrow at Ohm, taking a zip of his Coke at the same time.
"What are you talking about? Of course, it was the right decision...who wouldn't want a PlayStation 5 at this time? Do you know how hard it is, to get this shit?"
"You know perfectly well, that's not what I mean....I mea-"
"Neo, no, stop hold it right there –" Ohm held up a Hand, gesturing to Neo, that he doesn't want to continue with that particular conversation.
"You know I love and respect you – you are like the big brother I never had...but please don't come and question my relationship with Nanon and the decisions I am making because of that"
"I love you too Ohm, really and that's why I am urging you to reconsider this or at least tell him."
"He will get anxious, if he ever found out...maybe turn it down even"
"Exactly – and that is his right to do so...listen Ohm, this is a big deal! Imagen something was ever going to happen to you (which I hope will never occur) but what if? You want Nanon to find out about this then? When its possibly too late to say anything?"
"By this time, he would at least know how much he means to me...there is not much a person can say or do to proof to the other person that they love them more than anything in this world – nothing - so...why not give him my life?"
"But do you even know, what he feels for you? Would he do the same for you..?"
"I don't need to know. I don't care. Our love is not about what you can get from the other in exchange of another thing, it's the selfless desire of wanting to give your all to that person, without any conditions. Last chrismas, I almost lost him, Neo – lost him for good. He didn't want to speak to me for almost 2 whole weeks, it was killing me in ways you can't even imagen" Ohm shut his eyes breathily in a painful motion, remembering the pain he felt of almost losing Nanon.
"I want him to know, how much I really love him"
Neo looked at him with an expression that was undefinable to Ohm. He assumed it was worry and fear. Neo must have probably thought of how crazy in love a person could be for another person – willingly giving all authority over his life to a Person, that was not direct family. But Neo really had no idea – no idea how much Ohm Pawat loved Nanon Korapat. No one really knew. This deep emotion of unconditional love, wanting a person every second of every minute of a day. Longing for their presence the moment they parted ways. How endlessly long the hours felt, whenever they parted only to see each other again in less than 24 hours. Ohm missed him so much, sometimes he fought the urge to just drive by his apartment, giving him a surprise visit. Ohm was crazy about him and so was Nanon - he just never really showed it – in public anyway.

*

"Aiii Ohm – Stop doing that -there are cameras pointing at us for fuck sake" Nanon tried to communicate between tight pressed teeth. Ohm was pinching his ass – again. It was a habit, Ohm cultivated whenever they had – well, their entanglement. Ohm just couldn't resist this perfectly curved ass cheeks of Nanon and the wiggle that came with it every time he moved from Point A to Point B. Ohm just couldn't take his eyes of them – and him.
"I am sorry Non...you are just too sexy", Nanon blushed at Ohms words, still giving him a smack behind his head for what he just did. "Shut up Pawat", Nanon turned his head away from Ohm, smiling.

*

"What is it? Are you not hungry?", Nanon asked, looking at Ohms full plaid Infront of him.
He was playing with his food – which he only did, when he was frustrated, angry, sad or anxious – Nanon hated it. So he stopped eating, looking at Ohm intensely.
"What is it....? Tell me or I will leave this place – without you", Ohm shot him a wounded look at that sentence.
"Are you going to talk?" Nanon pretended to pack up his bag "Okay...then –"
"What would you do, if something was to happen to me?"
"What?"
"You heard me"
"Why would you say that? Are you crazy...you shouldn't say such things"
"What would you do?"
"What do you want me to tell you Ohm? That I would die with you?"
"No...-I- that's not what I mea-"
"Then why ask me this fucked up question in the first place? I don't like that Ohm. Don't talk like that. You know I can't handle such things"
"You can talk to your mother about what casket to buy when you die or what party to throw at your funeral but we can not talk about the possibly of me getting hurt..?"
"That's different. We are talking about the definite future Ohm, everyone will sooner or later die, that's nothing knew, idealistically my father dies, then my mother, then me and then Nonnie but we will all die eventually. So planning for those things is understandable to me, rational. But what you are saying is totally different. You are talking about the possibility of something unpredictable happening to you – before your earthly time. And that is just stupid."
"Its still a possibility..."
"Aii Ohm, enough with that stupid topic now – I don't want to talk about it, I don't even want to think about it, you are going to be fine, grow old, get married, have kids and so on"
"Oooh wow slow down Non...I mean yes, of course I want to have kids with you and marry you but one step at the time...."
"Fuck you.."
Ohm hugged him from behind, giving him a quick kiss on the cheek.
"I love you, Non...always have, always will..."
"Why are you being so weird today...?"
Ohm just smiled at him with his million-dollar smile, making Nanon's knees go weak and his heart incredibly warm.
He loved Ohm too, more than he would ever know.